escaping mundanity & normalcy..

[struggling..]
[sick.. running nose..]
[listening to Qi Li Xiang..]

never once i find making a decision to blog so difficult..
well.. this is Tuesday.. i did not make a date with Morrie..
he's dead anyway.. but his vast knowledges still circulate
around the world.. why am i doing this on Tuesday??
well.. just feel like writing something here..

ok.. still haven't get over from the situation.. so silly of me..
it's a tough time for her at the moment.. yet i can't think of
anything to cheer her up.. still sitting here typing my loads
of rubbish.. logged on to my friendster earlier.. went to view
her profile as usual.. kind of my routine since so long ago..
somehow forgotten how all these started.. this one sided
wishful thinking..

silly of me.. i wish i'm the only one feeling hurt.. not you..
foolish of me.. trying to make myself not to keep thinking about you..
crazy of me.. for trying to make you feel better, while i'm not far better off..
faithfully waiting.. the rays that melts my heart when you starts to smile again..
sincerely wishing.. for the best of everything coming for you..
even if it means you will be not around as frequent..

innocently me..

my running nose is bothering me.. since weekend.. guess nothing goes
smooth when one's luck is down.. feeling drowsy for the whole day..
dazing my working hours away.. but still manage to accomplish some
matters on hand.. didn't want to get an MC.. as it might affect my job
appraisal.. i'm still under probation you see.. although one day might
not mean anything.. since i still can manage it.. just endure through till
5.30pm loh.. drink loads of water.. trying to flush my body system clean..
kind of better than how i felt in the morning.. hopefully tomorrow won't
be that bad again..

well.. that Sunday.. sort of turning point for the week.. anyway, met my
friends to watch fireworks.. suppose to pick me up at around 4pm.. wait
till 5.30pm then reached my home.. went to Marina Square.. well.. it's
so crowded.. couldn't find parking lot.. finally called my friend, Leonard
and his girlfriend, Suzie to hop into the car.. six of us squeezing in Ah Wee's
sporty Lancer.. hahaha.. drop over to HarbourFront to get ourselves dinner
from MacDonalds.. then rush back to Marina.. drove over to the patch of
reclaimed land opposite Esplanade.. it's crowded there.. maybe this is what
i call.. Great Minds Think Alike.. hahaha.. didn't manage to meet up the other
three friends who came separately.. only to meet up after the fireworks at
Marina South..

the fireworks are definitely splendid.. the feeling of being young again..
i remember watching it over the Sheares Bridge with my family when
i was young.. memories.. the work by HongKong Team is admirable
great.. even though the whole thing end in a short 5 minutes.. the impact
leave deep in my heart.. now i'm looking forward to the work by Team
Singapore this coming Sunday.. grand finale..

after meeting up with the rest of the group at marina south.. we went
over to Simpang Bedok (sp?) for supper.. Maggie Goreng, Cheese and
Mushroom John, Satays, Chicken Wings.. just to name a few.. yummy..
yummy.. reach home at around midnight.. came online after my shower..
quite aimless.. play a few round of Yahoo! Pool.. stare blanking at the
screen.. showing her friendster profile.. while Qi Li Xiang keep repeat
from the Window Media Player.. the feeling of cold struck me.. i know
i'm falling sick soon.. indeed.. as i'm having a running nose now.. stay
till 4am before my tiredness won me over.. somehow wrote something
on my phone before i sleep.. my another avenue of writing..

Monday.. National Day.. Public Holiday.. hee.. don't need to work.. it's
just feel so great when i don't need to work.. escaping from the hassle
of rushing deadlines.. witnessing some impractical arguments.. hearing
the gossips and slandering from one and other.. i just want to keep my
mind free.. anyway.. woke up by my phone again.. well.. i seldom switch
it off.. went to meet my friends, Willy and Morgan for a swim.. thought
that after the swim, might feel much better.. it was proven.. wrong!!
hehehe.. went to Great World City.. Willy wanted to buy goggles.. as
his old pair snapped off.. but he bought a disc by Paul Van Dyke instead..
hahaha.. went home after that.. didn't manage to get anything for myself..
came online again.. go through my routine.. then went for a nap.. missed
the uniformed groups march pass when i wake up.. sian.. the only item
in the parade that attracts me.. spend most of the time looking at this
monitor box instead.. still feel so sick after the nap.. stay till around 11pm
before dropping onto my bed.. starts to think of her again.. haiz..

i've already wrote so much today.. what am i suppose to write tomorrow?
well.. just let it be.. maybe i can come out with something else?? maybe..
maybe not.. just wait and see.. shall end this now..
TaKe CaRE..

Night will end for yet another day..
Morning will come in a special way..
May you smile like the sunny ray..
Leaving your worries at the bay..

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 8/10/2004 08:54:00 PM