escaping mundanity & normalcy..

[refer to title..]

feeling kind of tired right now.. not physically..
more like mentally.. what has happened to me???
hmm.. a sudden change of mood last night.. thought
that might feel better when i wake up the next day..
but it turns out the same.. at least it did not turn
worse..

doesn't really know what went wrong with me currently..
especially last night.. talking without using my brain
during some moment.. due to alcohol or just plain tired?
most likely to be a bit of both..

went for pre-employment medical check-up yesterday.. was
told that the sugar level in my blood is a bit high.. was
pretty shock.. really must cut down my daily intake of
sweet stuffs.. also have to find some time out for a little
bit of workout.. haiz.. have to go back for another check-up
next week.. hopefully the result will be good.. even if the
result turn out to be good.. i still have to continue with
the prevention.. don't want this to happen again.. perhaps,
this is the reason why i'm feeling giddy lately.. really
have to be very serious with this now.. haiz..

don't feel like posting anything about my job.. tired..
life after NS.. after the day we collected back our long
kept away IC.. wonder how is everyone doing?? many, i
believe are waiting for their school terms to start..
some have already took up a job.. temp or perm.. while
some must be slacking away..

when we are young.. we always wanted to behave like an
adult.. given certain authority to do things we like..

when we've grown up.. we will be thinking how good it
will be if we can turn back time.. if only i can turn
back time..

i hate feeling like this.. i wanted to life myself up..
but just couldn't do so.. i really wish i have the
ability to do so.. sometimes i can.. sometimes i don't..
nothing comes perfect.. sure to have faults or flaws
somewhere.. somehow..

it's only early of July.. hopefully the rest of it will
be better than now.. hope the dark clouds casting above
me will cleared.. maybe in the next minute? the next hour?
or the next day? just want to feel fresh again..

sometimes, writing a post here really helps.. especially
when i've type out something that's in my mind.. and
simply hit the [Back Space] key.. it seems like the thing
has been erased.. escaping huh?? everyone have their ways
of handling their own problem.. but usually only have two
outcome.. facing or escaping.. choose one that is suitable
for the situation..

took quite a long pause.. mind wanders off somewhere.. in
fact, many places.. hope this wandering mind of mine will
settle down soon.. just hope.. haiz.. if only..

seems like there's some more stuffs to write.. but can't
find an appropriate way link up the whole things.. just
cast it one side.. not really that important i guess..
looking forward to the end of the month.. but not the
next.. will explain it if i have the mood to do so.. :p

ok.. feeling better.. no longer that bad now.. mainly is
because i found something great.. was browsing through
some new technology stuffs.. come across this wonderful
creation.. downloaded this software and link it here to
try it out.. all you have to do is to place your cursor,
a.k.a mouse arrow.. if u don't know.. :p to the wordings
that i've typed below in blue.. the computer will read
out the words.. great isn't it?? what an invention..
it has a library of more than 170,000 words.. the creator
come out with this initially to help his blind child..
on seeing result.. he decided to have his program to be
share by those in need.. try in out!!

this creation is simply amazing

nice huh?? if you want to download this program.. just
click here hope you will like it.. that's all for today..
TaKe CaRE!!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 7/11/2004 05:36:00 PM

only if i know..