escaping mundanity & normalcy..

May.. a month.. i rather not to
remember much.. have not been
really productive on the whole..

falling sick.. dread of work.. dread
of the work place.. dread of seeing
the same group of people..

on the contrary.. my supervisor..
put faith in me for the project I'm
currently working on.. yet did not
know.. in my mind.. my thought of
leaving was getting stronger..

the only obstacle is.. I've not found
another job.. neither do I really have
a specific area to look into..

one close friend uses this.. "sick
building syndrome".. no matter how
well.. how healthy.. the moment you
step into the building.. you'll feel
sick.. ok.. it may sounds just like an
excuse.. although it is.. but true..

stepping out of comfort zone isn't
really an easy decision to decide on..
especially in the matter of finance..

deep in my mind.. I wish I could just
tender and take a break for a month
or two.. but on reality.. the financial
security will suffer.. something that
holds me back till now..

what irks me the most is.. I thought
I was well prepared.. yet.. I failed to
perform normally.. I did my home-
work.. yet not enough.. it was really
a great disappointment.. despite my
great anticipation to the interview..

so many things that bothers me..
so many things that I wanted to do..
so many things that I've missed..
so many, so many..

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 5/24/2008 05:51:00 PM

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

twinkle twinkle little star..

simply adore this..

simply makes me drools on.. hope

my phone won't die on me again

till this is launch.. =D

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 5/07/2008 11:53:00 PM

Saturday, May 03, 2008

like desert..

the weather is quite unbearable lately..
having heard a few complains about it
here and there.. but..

I just LOVE this weather.. haha..!

it's kind of like soaking in the Sun.. like
having a day on a beach.. virtually..
without needing to step out from home..
and away from the harmful UVs.. haha..

or maybe.. I'm just so miss the beaches..
the Sun.. the sand.. and the Sea..

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 5/03/2008 07:01:00 PM

Thursday, May 01, 2008

restlessness..

如果你愿意一层一层一层
的剥开我的心
你会发现你会讶异
你是我最压抑最深处的秘密

如果你愿意一层一层一层
的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸你会流泪
只要你能听到我
看到我的全心全意

been quite restless lately.. especially
during the night.. it's the weather? or
is it me??

it really amazed me that how a person's
perception of an environment changes
due to the fact.. when he/she starts to
waver.. and that's me.. haha..

some breaking news announced during
the VP's coffee talk session.. good thing
is.. my place was not affected much.. but
staying put is not really a good option
either.. 人为财死，鸟为食亡.. with this
economic slowdown ongoing.. this sector
is not as favourable as before..

how I wish for a good holiday.. one that
can really recharge myself.. (although
easily back flat straight back to work..)

so many places I want to go.. so many..

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 5/01/2008 09:56:00 PM

let's forget..

twinkle twinkle little star..

like desert..

restlessness..