escaping mundanity & normalcy..

[Corrinne May - Little Superhero Girl]

I'm in dire need to remind myself on managing
my own savings carefully.. have been spending
without much self control lately..

celebrating my own birthday become such a
good excuse to buy something for myself.. but
the point is.. it's almost freaking 2 months since
my birthday was over.. hehe.. guilt-stricken..

wasn't really aware how bad my splurging was..
until the panic button was pressed on.. none
other than my credit limit.. I'm the type who
uses credit card like a debit card.. pay up all the
bills whenever the transaction is recorded in..
till now.. this is the very first time I burst my
credit limit.. the thought of it.. quite scary.. was
hit straight back to earth.. hit hard on my head..

to realise that.. my targets that I set.. I'm not
adhering to what I've set for myself.. loses my
concentration.. my self discipline..

luckily.. before everything goes out of control..

well.. did something that shocked someone
yesterday.. it has been (let me think..) about
8 years since I got to know Jasmine a.k.a Er
Shi Xiong, my blog Shi Fu.. one who always
gives me ugly nick.. the one who gang up with
huggies to encourage me to spend money.. =p
the "a.k.a" is a bit long.. but I already tried to
summarized.. back to the topic.. through mIRC,
then to ICQ.. now through MSN and our own
weblogs.. didn't get to meet up with her.. most
of the time because of timing not right.. or me
being lazy.. haha.. I must admit to that..

was browsing through the web to search for
four leaves clover accessories.. buying one as a
birthday present for one of my colleague.. was
asking her for opinions.. end up choosing one
that she like.. but out of stock.. haa..

fast forward.. went Raffles Place.. as there is
a roadshow for these accessories.. but they only
had the white gold versions there.. make my
way down to their shop at Concourse.. while
choosing the design for my colleague.. chance
upon the design Jas had mentioned earlier..
since already there.. been friend for so long liao..
ought to get her something ba.. see! I so good..

sms her to see if she is free to collect it from me
after her work.. was contemplating of a location
to meet.. until both compromise to meet at
Aljunied.. deliver present also troublesome sia..
haha.. although the meeting was rather brief..
but okay lah.. because I'm in a rush to get home
to collect a parcel also..

choosing gifts for people is often a headache.. but
at least, this time.. this small gift set a smile on
someone's face.. even though it's a piggy smile..
just as good.. hahaha.. =p

must have regret collecting the present from me
right?? making a nuisance of you for 5 paragraphs
liao loh.. hahaha.. okay lah.. don't be mean to you..
I better "keep hand".. haha..

been feeling like a Santa Claus lately.. buying lots
of stuffs.. giving lots of stuffs.. never thought of
getting anything back in return.. just the smile
from the receiver.. it just feels good to brighten up
someone's day.. even though it's a small gesture..
that makes me a samaritan?? hmm.. hahaha..

I'm just too evil to become one.. =p

for some things.. money can't buy..
(not that slapstick Mastercard commercial..)
the returns are actually very much invaluable..

on the other hand.. I finally got to know why Santa
Claus like to laugh in the manner no other people
normally do..

"Hole..! Hole..! Hole..!"

did a little advance planning for December on what
to come.. guess I would be doing a lot of the Santa's
laughter when the bills come.. Hole..! Hole..! Hole..!

TaKe CaRE!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 9/16/2006 04:33:00 AM

Sunday, September 10, 2006

[梁静茹 - 恋着多喜欢]

choose not to read.. if you don't want..
just my usual once too often thoughts
here..

a journey that walks for more than a
quarter of a century.. came upon
countless of crossroads.. bumped onto
a few walls.. took occassional trips.. but
I know I'll be fine, once I find my way
back to continue with it..

in Spiderman.. we knew.. greater power
comes with greater responsibility.. this
applies very well in life when we stepped
into the society after graduation..

man management.. this is a skill.. a trade..
that will never eludes anyone when you
starts to climb up the corporate ladders..
like it or hate it.. personally.. I don't hate
it.. neither I like doing.. not by choice..

one colleague came up to me one day to
apologise to me for a misunderstanding
that I was not known of.. or at least.. I
didn't know he hates me.. kind of funny..

misunderstanding or not.. I don't really
care about what they think about me.. I
only do what I think is right.. which are
within my means.. I can't stop everyone
who want to say anything about me..
they have their own freedom of speech..
so do I.. I do gossips.. I expect others too..
don't tell me you don't..

been spending a lot recently.. straining
my credit limits.. hope this is an one off
incident.. another lesson learnt to proper
manage my own finance.. I still sucks in
this area.. really am..

still waiting for the arrival of my watch
that I ordered from Japan.. hope it look
as nice as it is on the website.. also my
very first experience purchasing from
an oversea website.. hope everything is
running smooth.. i hope..

there's always so much to look forward
to.. than to keep on looking back..

TaKe CaRE!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 9/10/2006 12:49:00 AM

Friday, September 01, 2006

在你心中有這樣一個人嗎？

在你心中有這樣的一個人嗎？

你們可能相愛過，你們也可能喜歡著彼此，

但是，為了什麼原因你們沒能在一起？

也許他為了朋友之間的義氣，不能追你。

也許為了顧及家人的意見，你們沒有在一起。

也許為了出國深造，他沒有要你等他。

也許你們相遇太早，還不懂得珍惜對方。

也許你們相遇太晚，你們身邊已經有了另一個人。

也許你回頭太遲，對方已不再等待。

也許你們彼此在捉摸對方的心，而遲遲無法跨出界線。

不過即使你們沒在一起，你們還是保持了朋友的關係。

但是你們心底清楚，對這個人，你比朋友還多了一份關心。

即使不能跟他名正言順的牽著手逛街，

你們還是可以做無所不談的朋友。

他有喜歡的人，你口頭上會幫他追，心裡卻不是很清楚，

你是不是真的希望他追到。

他遇到困難時，你會盡你所能的幫他，不會計較誰又欠了誰。

男女朋友吃醋了，你會安撫他們說你和他只是朋友，

但你心中會有那麼一絲的不確定。

每個人這輩子，心中都有過這麼一個特別的朋友，很矛盾的行為。

一開始你不甘心只做朋友的，

但久了，突然發現這樣最好。

你寧願這樣關心他，總好過你們在一起而有天會分手。

你寧願做他的朋友，彼此不會吃醋，才可以真的無所不談。

特別是這樣，你還是知道，他永遠會關心你的。

做不成男女朋友，當他那個特別的朋友，有什麼不好呢？

你心中的這個特別的朋友。。。?是誰呢？

很多的感情，都因為一廂情願，最後連朋友都當不成了，

常常覺得惋惜，可惜一些本來很好的友情，

最後卻因為對方的一句喜歡你，

如果你沒有反應，這一段友情似乎也難以維持下去，

這也難怪有些人會因此不肯踏出這一步。

因為這就像是一場賭注，

表白了之後不是成了男女朋友，

要不就連朋友都當不成了。

有些事不是你能預料的，或許對方不在意，

你們還可以是朋友，

但卻已經不如從前的好。

也是可惜，也是遺憾！

但還有沒有可能是另一種情況，

你可能永遠都不甘心只是朋友。。。

I know this is a long entry.. but definitely
something worth spending the time to
read.. at least to me.. =)

TaKe CaRE!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 9/01/2006 08:06:00 PM