escaping mundanity & normalcy..

[Dido - I'm No Angel]

given a lifeline to start everything anew..
sacrifices made.. but all worth for what
it is turning out right now.. guess.. right
now.. the most important factor will be
Time.. Time which we see changes take
place.. Time to see one's determination..
the success.. or a downfall..

whatever it is.. I'm grateful for what it
is now.. although still far from what I
truely wish for.. but at least.. I'm not
been pronounced a death sentence..

still.. I'm looking out for the stress that
is mounting.. need to unwind..

weekend ended.. another work week
going to start in about 3 hours time..
got to get my butt off here..

TaKe CaRE!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 5/28/2006 02:24:00 AM

Saturday, May 27, 2006

Rascal Flatts - What Hurts The Most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now
and then and just let 'em out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain
of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile
when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed,
livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words
that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 5/27/2006 01:41:00 PM

Thursday, May 25, 2006

[蔡依林 - Mr Q]

wondering how do I start this.. there
seems to be an unwillingness to log in
to get this entry done..

over the past week.. was having some
serious insomia.. remaining awake for
at least 30 hours twice this week.. not
that I'm busy.. but when night falls.. I
can seems to be able to get to sleep..

stress.. I guess stresses are mounting..
be it work.. or personal.. unable to find
a way out of it.. suddenly, making a
decision becomes so tough.. everything
looks as if disorientation..

hope for an miracle.. is there? nope..
so.. I'm not lucky enough for miracle..
thus, don't hope for it.. just got to
endure this through..

hmm.. all seems so negative over here
lately.. wonder when will this make a
change? wonder when will this change
for a better? when?

despite all these.. I still got to say..

TaKe CaRE!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 5/25/2006 10:36:00 PM

Friday, May 19, 2006

[Fort Minor - Where'd You Go]

was contemplating whether to log into
blogspot since 11p.m.. and the time now
is 3.50a.m.. time brought to you by my
faithful laptop.. what goes better than
this is.. I'll be heading to work in about
another 2 hours time.. wonder what's
going for me in the next 12 hours.. this
is just so crazy..

can't really fall asleep.. maybe I'm in
the left side of my mind at the moment..
need to get over the sudden overbearing
thoughts that rushes in..

never it been so dark since I can recalled..
little did I know I've already let myself
fall so deeply into the pit.. seriously.. I've
never thought of coming up from it.. not
once.. not at this moment..

maybe it's the only way.. that I have to
go through this via the hard way.. a test
that is set for me.. to prove myself... to..

until the faithful day.. where my path are
lighted up.. it's no other choices but to
brave the darkness..

on my way..

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 5/19/2006 03:51:00 AM

Friday, May 12, 2006

[Daniel Powter - Free Loop]

despite undergoing a certain stage of
unpleasant emotional ride.. the bright
side of life do light up on me.. really
feel grateful.. when you.. my friends..
shows the concern.. even though I did
not open up my problem.. but I'm
really happy.. for I know I have you
guys as my friends.. Thank You!!

back from the trip in Taipei.. quite an
experience.. but wouldn't say to be
pleased overall.. will definitely want to
visit again.. but with a different group
of people I guess.. and definitely not
any time soon..

suppose to catch a nap before heading
down to work later.. but for unknown
reason.. my pair of eyes are kept wide
open since 10a.m in the morning..

sure to suffer from sleepiness tonight..

I lost my patience.. and almost lost
what I dear most.. now I have to start
from scratch.. to mend the damage I've
done.. with patience.. and more..

on the other hand.. all focus on my own
work.. which is not really a bad thing..
afterall.. that's where the money source
come from.. got to curb myself from any
more spending sprees.. save up.. plan
before spend.. need to be strong with it..

some of my colleagues are really into
photography.. I had my fair share during
the Taipei trip.. tried a thing or two with
the borrowed digital camera.. took a few
surprisingly nice pictures.. got to try my
hand on photoshop to make them better..
can't possibly compete with the SLRs..

anyone kind enough to sponsor me a
digital camera?? I don't demand for a SLR
lah.. I'm not that greedy.. neither am I so
pro with photography.. I just need a good
digital camera to capture special moments..
perhaps a Canon Ixus 800IS?? hehe.. =p

if that's too demanding.. how about a
sponsorship to "NST New Phone Fund"??
this is to sponsor the owner of this site..
in aiding his old ridden 3230.. which seems
to be heading for retirement any time soon..
need help.. anyone??

skies darken.. thunder roars.. what a wrong
timing.. when I'm going to work.. while such
a weather.. is so condusive for lazing on the
bed.. sleeping..

now it's time to plan what's for dinner later
on.. with such a weather.. don't think I will
be able to venture far today..

TaKe CaRE!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 5/12/2006 03:36:00 PM

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

on the flight back home..
across the dark sky..
above South China Sea..
seems peaceful out there..
but, nevertheless..

plenty of thoughts..

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 5/09/2006 04:01:00 AM