Thursday, April 27, 2006

 

我想是因為握得太緊。。
所以不小心傷害了你。。
也因此傷害了自己。。

也許你不會讀到這一頁。。
也許。。有很多的也許。。
祇想對你說聲。。對不起

這三個字。。不只是要對
一個我非常在意的人說。。
也想在此。。對我在無意
中。。得罪或傷害的朋友
說。。 對不起。。


walkingtarts awake and ranted on 4/27/2006 05:52:00 PM

 

[周華建 - 雨人]

suppose to write this entry in chinese..
but somehow.. the internet connection
gets a bit jump whenever I start to use
the chinese program.. still unable to
figure out what went wrong?

after a hectic week.. started to consume
my off days.. work schedule was pretty
slack for me for the next couple of week..
which I don't really know it's a good or
bad situation for me.. as I have no idea
what to do during my free time.. lifeless..

always tell myself.. not to let my mood
affect my work.. but it seems like not
working on me.. even though I try so
hard not to.. people still able see.. or
maybe I'm just not good in concealing
my emotion? nonetheless.. felt rather
glad that I have a bunch of colleagues
who shows concern.. although I did not
reveal to them what bothering me..

Morgan once wrote something on my
testimonial.. which really reflect much
about my character.. perhaps.. that's
something I really isn't able to change
all these while.. even though I do know
the bottleneck effect may take toll..

4 of my colleagues are leaving by this
week.. work with one of them last night..
his last day that is.. going to miss their
presense in work.. especially when 2 of
them joined the company on the same
period as me.. but good for them.. every
Man moves on to scale a greater height..
hopefully.. they are able to succeed in
their future endeavour..

changes always take place.. it's depend
on how fast are we able to accept.. with
a fast changing society.. what more I
need to say? either we change.. or we
get changed.. that's life..

congestion at the moment.. not been
able to write anything condusive.. but..
since when I had? haa.. nevermind..

I hate it when it rain.. and I need the
Sun.. how can a solar panel work when
the Sun is covered? me.. a solar panel?
I just need the Sun for once..

TaKe CaRE..


walkingtarts awake and ranted on 4/27/2006 12:38:00 AM
Thursday, April 20, 2006

 

[王力宏 - 第一个清晨]

ok.. I still didn't manage to curb the
temptation to buy.. and finally make
the decision to get what I want in
the afternoon.. another hole burnt in
my pocket.. T_T

somehow.. browsing through the list
of contact in my MSN.. many people
are not feeling really happy lately..
so is the weather.. had not been nice
too.. rain never failed to make it's
daily appearance every afternoon..
be it halfway through my lunch.. or
when I'm about to go home..

realise something about myself.. it's
kind of like about my personality.. or
perhaps.. a split one..

when I'm concerning about matters
that are not of my own.. I seems to
behave either around my age or +2..

but when comes to my own personal
matters.. I seems to have it divided
by 2..??

2 more weeks to go..

TaKe CaRE!!


walkingtarts awake and ranted on 4/20/2006 10:00:00 PM
Wednesday, April 19, 2006

 

[Tank - 三国恋]

I feel an excessive urge to spend..
spending on something that cost
a sum again.. just thinking of it..
makes me feel not too good.. my
mind keeps psycho-ing me at this
very moment..

it's an good investment.. you'll need this..
you are not going to use it once.. trust me..

someone.. stop me please.. if not..
sponsor me also can lah... =D

wonder how the research and checking
Patrick had told me been going..? hmm..

TaKe CaRE!!


walkingtarts awake and ranted on 4/19/2006 09:46:00 PM
Monday, April 17, 2006

 

[任贤齐 - 两极]

it has been practically raining everyday..
weather so nice to laze at home.. bad for
anyone who wish to have some tan..

still.. I manage to get my butt off.. and
went for a swim during my off day.. need
to have a little workout to relax both the
body and the mind..

went off to rent a car after the swim.. as
I need it for the next day to fetch some of
my colleagues from Malaysia, coming over
to play during Easter Friday.. there's 8 of
us.. but only 1 car.. therefore, got to rent
another..

1 year 3 months.. is how long since I last
drove a car.. and that's during my test..
blunders are very much expected for the
next few days.. in fact, immediately.. haa..

as I drove out of the rental centre.. towards
petrol station before heading home.. find it
weird that the car don't seems to be able to
speed up.. upon reaching entering the petrol
kiosk.. I was greet by a stunned face

why the stunned face?? because there were
smoke coming out from the back of the car..
well.. from the rear tyres to be exact.. how
did this happen?? hee.. well.. that's because
I forget to release the handbrake while I'm
driving.. blur me.. =p

went Wild Wild Wet the next day.. fetch the
few of them up at Kranji.. was raining when
we reached.. don't wish to dampen any mood..
and since we will be wet when we play.. just
heck with the rain.. and off to have some fun..

tiring day it was.. especially when I got to
drive them around.. after sending them back
to Woodland to catch their bus home.. send
another colleague back to his home at Chua
Chu Kang.. then to Orchard to meet up with
Willy and Patrick.. walk a bit before picking up
Morgan at Tiong Bahru and to Holland Village..

received a call on Saturday morning.. was told
that I'm scheduled for work.. there were some
slight changes in the work schedule which I was
not told of.. since there's extra earning.. why not?

fetched Leo from his home before going to KST's
place for BBQ after work.. as the fish farm is way
inside the cementry.. it'll be quite eerie when I
got to drive back alone after that..

4 days of driving.. some road experiences gained..
many occasion where I lost my way.. missed a
turn.. and a parking fine.. all added up.. was in
fact something I'll not learn.. if I didn't try..

something hot on the news lately.. the talks on
Election is all over the media.. how heated the
contest will be.. it seems like the district I'm
staying.. will not be contested.. yet again.. haa..
but it's quite entertaining watching the ruling
party and the oppositions turning on the heat..

not in good mood lately.. guess some people
saw that in me.. but not many people knows
what is going on.. perhaps, this is me.. not
wanting to pour my sorrows.. fully bear what
I would be facing.. alone..

TaKe CaRE!!


walkingtarts awake and ranted on 4/17/2006 09:19:00 PM
Thursday, April 06, 2006

 






















在黑白灰的世界里。。尝试寻找自己。。发现了妳。。迷失了方向。。



walkingtarts awake and ranted on 4/06/2006 04:49:00 PM
Wednesday, April 05, 2006

 

[@ work..]

quiet as the night should be.. somewhere..
somehow.. is not that quiet..

feeling right at this moment.. hell..

will you be the one to show me the light?
is this too much to ask for? I don't really know..

*grasping for air*


walkingtarts awake and ranted on 4/05/2006 01:16:00 AM
Monday, April 03, 2006

 

[@ work..]

it's 2a.m now.. in the midst of my work..
taking off track a little to get on with this..
feeling somewhat stressful at the moment..
knowing someone who is in good personal
term is leaving the company.. is definitely
not good.. what gets even better.. when
actually 4 of them had tendered this week..
guess a major reshuffling might take place..

dinner and dance on last Friday was alright..
wasn't really enjoying it.. but at least manage
to take a photo together with her.. was rather
worried that I might missed the chance..

went karaoke session with some of my
colleagues after the dinner.. sang all the way
till 4a.m.. while my journey home was a fast
one.. some of them will have to endure the
gruesome journey back to JB..

came back to work last night.. one of my
colleague had already forecast medical leave..
so I need to come back to cover his duty.. not
a wise choice to come back on a start up day..
all hell just broke loose.. one by one.. machine
gets problematic.. feeling so drained out.. got
straight into my bed after showering when I
got back home in the morning.. still feeling
rather tired now..

trip to Taiwan is still underway.. encounter a
little setback.. hopefully the problem can be
settle by tomorrow.. then I can go ahead to
book the tickets.. and also the reservation for
rooms.. really wish she is able to make it for
the trip.. organising this trip is really tiring..
but for the better outcome.. to walk a little
more miles.. definitely worth the effort.. =)

going back to check on my work stuffs..

TaKe CaRE!!


walkingtarts awake and ranted on 4/03/2006 02:01:00 AM
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