[Beverly Craven - Promise Me] troubled.. what will you do when you found that you have a slight different perception with majority of the people around? those that you often mingled with.. follow the crowd? or hold on to your own? choosing the latter.. looks odd one out.. but in personal term.. holding on to my own.. I see a long term goal archieving.. perhaps I find something that keeps me going.. while they have other thoughts.. perhaps being slightly older than the rest of them.. I understand the need to change.. the need to accept.. perhaps it's because they are young.. they can afford to make mistakes.. where they have less worries losing what they have.. perhaps it's because I'm afraid of losing what I'm having now.. this fear has actually built the determination to work hard.. yet slowly ostracise from the others.. my boss came to have a little pep talk with two of my fellow colleagues and me this afternoon.. something encouraging.. which I'm pretty happy about.. receiving feedbacks from different level of personnels in the department.. good.. "you guys are heading on the right track.. keep up the good work. influence the others with the attitude.. not the other way round.." this seems to be serve as a reminder to us.. which I kind of understand.. because the three of us had already set a benchmark for others to follow.. but the problem is.. of the three of us.. only I am looking forward on a longer term in this place.. and like the others.. the two of them are not prepare to see that as a goal.. wonder.. by next August.. how many of the current clique still be together..?? changes do happen.. don't they? =) on a lighter note.. I'm edging closer to achieve what I set out to.. on the right track.. next on.. been feeling weird lately.. sudden inability to speak up.. the flood of thoughts.. uncontrollable.. hesistation.. things just seems to jumble up.. then jumps in all direction.. to simplify it.. just plain messy.. the above paragraph can be ignored.. because I don't seems to understand what I write too.. deep in the thoughts of certain someone.. TaKe CaRE!! walkingtarts awake and ranted on 3/29/2006 10:14:00 PM
[smile..] smile in the beginning of the day.. let the curve lift your mood up for the rest of the day.. =) got to start working.. cya!! TaKe CaRE!! walkingtarts awake and ranted on 3/28/2006 07:01:00 AM
[enemy is.. myself] recieved a call from my colleague this morning.. was told that the production target was met.. and need not turn up for work in the evening.. but to report back to work on Monday morning.. good to have a rest after working for so many days.. but there goes for my 3 days of night shift allowance..!! went to attend Fire Safety awareness course on Thursday.. had to go all the way to Gul Way for it.. -_-" so far.. joined my colleagues for KTV at The One later in the evening.. kind of like a last minute decision.. but had some fun with them.. =D went back to work the next day to cover the duty of my colleague.. feeling rather tired.. and same for the next day.. human's greatest enemy is oneself.. ok.. I'm not the one who originate this.. someone told me is Dalai Lama.. why am I saying this?? something seems to bother me.. simple as thing can be.. to make or to break.. is just in one's mind.. procrastination seems to be the weakness in me.. always has been.. wonder how could I break through this barrier?? still ongoing with my holiday planning.. seems like progressing pretty slowly.. hopefully can confirm everything within this 2 weeks.. the drained feeling seems to get a little more as each day passes.. coming Friday will be the company year start party at Swissotel.. somewhat looking forward to it.. but not what after.. no specific plan in mind.. some says M.O.S after the party.. while some going back to JB for their own activities.. perhaps I might end up going home in this situation.. since nowhere to go.. but of all this.. really hope it will be a enjoyable event.. I'm working hard.. striving to perform.. trying to save.. yet so aimless in other aspect of me.. it's always the case whereby.. you tell yourself you won't feel this way.. do this thing.. but often as it may be.. you will end up feeling this way.. doing this thing.. but you just can't help it.. why? perhaps I should resume my morning routine that I've stop practising for quite some time.. brush.. gargle.. smile.. TaKe CaRE!! walkingtarts awake and ranted on 3/26/2006 09:35:00 PM
[林俊杰 - 原来] on night shift today.. suppose to be sleeping now.. but can't.. I'm no pig.. can't possibly sleep continuously for so many hours.. maybe catch a little nap later.. went KTV with my colleagues after work on Tuesday.. I must say I'm truely impressed by Eddy.. he seems to able to sing songs that we need to scream or shout effortlessly.. the way he project his voice.. amazing.. and also Soon's.. they make a great pair singing Powerstation's songs.. haa.. it was just fun.. fun.. and fun.. how to handle a feminine male?? not that I've a lot of prejudices.. but I can't seems to make myself tolerate such personality.. especially when I'm teaching him something.. I'm OK with girls making a fuss.. complaining.. and whining.. (no offend.. but true..) but I can't tolerate a guy that do that.. and never in work!! worst of all.. he got to be in the same team as me..!! why do I always got to be in the same team as people that can boiled my blood??!! a special kind of training ar??? when friendship is put to test.. it is only when we find out how fragile we are.. when character is put to test.. it is only when we find out how wrong we are.. when our mind is put to test.. it is only when we find out how weak we are.. but no matter how fragile.. how wrong.. how weak.. there's always more than it meet an eye.. one says looking at the bright side of life.. the other says there are greener pastures on the other side.. I say.. happiness is not what things you want it to turn out to be.. but the work you put on it.. at the end of the day.. you can tell yourself proudly that.. I've done my best.. TaKe CaRE!! walkingtarts awake and ranted on 3/16/2006 12:16:00 PM
[张惠妹 - 我要快乐?] for more than a decade ago.. I reached the summit of Bukit Timah Hill.. physically drained.. and filthy.. on the plus side.. it's fun to do all the foolish stuffs way back in our secondary school days.. today.. even though wasn't really in a good physical condition.. legs kind of feeling sore when I wake up in the morning.. but still manage to complete the hike without much effort.. perhaps been mentally prepared actually helps a lot.. it's a good form of exercise for every once in a while.. but I doubt will have another hike in recent.. as most of them are pretty shagged out after descended.. went IT Show again yesterday to get my wireless router.. which had already set up by my brother.. finally get to multi-task between watching TV and surfing the web at the same place liao.. and no longer a need to fight for a computer.. when each of us have one of our own now.. have anyone ever thought of actually, how many sides do you actually have? or in another term.. personalities..? I always believe everyone have multiple personalities.. each personality performs on it's very own stage.. the one that is most suitable.. typically, the personalities between work and social life.. they don't usually meet.. another type which is also quite common between peoples.. the personality you show with different types of people.. in serious cases.. this might be branded as hypocrisy.. but at certain extend.. this is deem necessary.. then which is your true personality?? well.. this might not be applied to all.. but quite for myself.. is the personality I feel comfortable.. laidback.. where personal defense level is at extremely low.. the will to win is in everyone's mind.. the will to compete.. the will to succeed.. thus, come comparisons.. when everyone try means and ways to outwit each other in the rat race.. too eager to perform may sometimes backfired.. I've tasted once or twice.. or perhaps upteen times.. that's why I muster the courage to use 3 words many people forget or afraid to use.. "I don't know" some people might feel their dignity been hurt by using these 3 words.. but there's a single word that people feel gutted just to say it out.. "Sorry" admitting a mistake is not really a big deal.. cast the pride or dignity aside.. through mistakes we learnt.. I've seen and getting tired of seeing others trying very hard to impress others.. to get recognised.. but we can't possibly dictate over their behavior right? I hope I can remember at times.. not to take my pride and dignity too hard.. the harder may falled.. this remind me of something ash wrote on her blog some time back.. "when you have less expectations.. you'll have less disappoints.." TaKe CaRE!! walkingtarts awake and ranted on 3/12/2006 03:55:00 PM
[Alanis Morissette - You Learn] was watching out the window while brushing my teeth earlier.. the moon wasn't full.. but was rather big.. seldom seen the moon close to earth for quite some time.. kind of feeling peaceful within.. don't know why.. it's 4.00a.m now.. just got home.. was out for practically the whole day.. went swimming in the late morning.. or noon actually.. did not swim for long.. a little over 1 hour thats all.. only completed 8 laps.. but unable to carry on, as skin on my right arm began to peel off.. looks really bad.. applied moisturiser on the affected areas as soon as I got home.. damage control seems to work as for now.. went IT Show @ Suntec in the evening.. saw Delson.. my Thai camp buddy.. compared to last year event.. it seems rather small.. nothing much to browse.. just get some brochures for my cousin and brochures on router for myself.. should be getting it tomorrow.. lack of update for the past week.. was away from home over the weekend.. Leo's chalet started on Friday.. sending Chu off for his final semester in Oz later in the night.. BBQ on Saturday.. went over to my Sis's chalet to meet up with my parents at Downtown East, before coming back to join them again.. it's been almost half a year since we last had chalet.. unwind.. relax.. never enough.. work has been fine.. except that I seems to be losing patient with my work partner lately.. I know the fact that no one is perfect.. neither am I.. but for someone who has been working for so many years.. I expect him to pick up and really understand his work well.. usually what we think are seldom turn out that way.. maybe I should pick up Tagalog.. because he only seems to listen to people speaking this language.. or people who are associate with the 'S' word.. namely 'senior' and 'supervisor'.. I'm just 'ST'.. perhaps in his eyes.. I'm just a lowly S-hole.. nevermind this.. because the worst is still yet to come.. soon in fact.. the month of April.. where I got to work with not one.. but two.. will I be able to survive this ordeal?? 1 whole freaking month to endure through.. interesting indeed.. some of my colleagues are laughing away.. none of them are as lucky as me.. still thinking of the moon.. but it's covered by the clouds now.. yet still remember image clearly.. enchanting.. mesmerising.. peace.. TaKe CaRE walkingtarts awake and ranted on 3/11/2006 04:01:00 AM |
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