[Temperature rising.. 100°C] had a heated arguement in the office with my manager late in the afternoon.. was quite stressed up due to work and some personal problem lately.. yet his non-stop barking for report boils my blood.. all hell broke loose.. stood up from my chair.. walk right up to him.. volume just increases rapidly.. in the heat of moment.. I threw the pen onto the desk between two of us.. pen rolled down the table.. whilst the pen cap hit him.. he pick up the pen and put back on the desk.. argument continue.. till I picked up the pen again.. this time.. I threw it onto my table.. almost hitting my colleague.. and he walk out of the office.. did not appear again.. the two colleagues who witnessed the whole argument were dumbfound.. they thought I was possessed.. total silence.. till I went to the washroom to wash my face.. not in the mood to talk much.. waited for the time to pass.. didn't really know what hit me.. it just snapped and I'm there shouting like nobody's business.. kind of intimitating.. was rather shocked myself.. I need a break.. a total break away from that place.. both physically and mentally drained.. TaKe CaRE!! walkingtarts awake and ranted on 6/29/2005 09:45:00 PM
[3 Doors Down - Here Without You] life is just like a rollercoaster ride.. started slow.. make a climb.. negotiate a bend.. had a drop.. climb back up again.. all these just keep repeating in random order.. in a matter of just one week from my last posting.. so much had happened.. left me inbalance for quite a while.. making the whole week seems like months to me.. never felt so lost.. when my life almost tumble onto my midget soul.. almost gave up holding on.. really don't know what is the real reason that keeps me on.. totally exhausted.. how long can I hold on?? someone sent me this.. one of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter.. well.. just as I thought how true this could be.. I come out with this as I ponder on.. the next hardest things in life is having so many words in my heart, yet no one to turn to.. this quite reflects my character.. not someone who speak out often.. resulting in many lose opportunities.. one that I yearn to change.. yet so hard to make it true.. perhaps I should not hesitate too much.. and fight for things that I want in my life.. put away the thoughts of people being hurt in the process.. can I make myself to be so heartless?? despite dark clouds conquer the entire sky.. I will not relent to lose out without a fight.. to see the ray of light that I long for.. hmm.. seems like I'm writing all these stuffs again.. can't help it.. just bear with me.. went to watch Initial D: The Movie at Tiong Bahru Plaza last night with KST, Mei, Leo, Suz, Wee and Adeline.. the drifting skills done by the stunt drivers were impressive.. I think Anthony Wong who play the role of Wen Tai.. Takumi's dad steal much of the movie for his comical act.. the show won't be the same without him.. although the whole script is kind of differ from the original comic.. but trying to bring the comic into a movie is already a very huge effort.. quite worth the price of weekend movie tickets to have a good laugh.. move on the Mount Faber for a drink before going home.. discuss about the chalet on the coming weekend.. and also the planning of a short weekend trip to Kukup Island.. will not be working on the coming Thursday.. wonder where should I go?? without saying.. most likely to be ended up at home the whole day.. what else? perhaps Swenson ice cream buffet? hahahaha.. =D if things are that bad in life.. the only way it will go on.. is only better.. jia you!! TaKe CaRE!! walkingtarts awake and ranted on 6/26/2005 06:05:00 PM
just got home no long ago.. went dinner with my parent and sis.. had it at Suntec City Crystal Jade Kitchen.. been to the Crystal Jade La Mian Xiao Long Bao a lot of times.. but this is the first time there.. as my brother is at Bangkok enjoying his time with 2 of his female mates.. he missed the meal.. but I'm pretty sure he won't want to missed this trip rather than the dinner.. hehehe.. =p quite a hectic day.. begin at 10am.. went down to Bugis to get some basic necessities.. rushed down to Bukit Gombak to collect something for my cousin from a friend.. had a drink before heading down to my cousin's place.. rest at her place before meeting my sis back in Bugis and then to Suntec to meet my parents.. one full day of MRT excursion along half the East - West Line.. tired.. a few events coming up in July.. really looking forward to the month of July.. looks really packed from now.. hopefully everything goes smoothly as planned.. but most likely to give my cousin's birthday celebration at Dbl O a missed... still not in mood for clubbing.. got to apologise to her for that.. hope she don't mind.. 2 more weeks to go.. =D simplicity makes the most happiness out of life.. TaKe CaRE!! walkingtarts awake and ranted on 6/19/2005 09:41:00 PM
I'm not a perfect person As many things I wish I didn't do But I continue learning I never meant to do those things to you And so I have to say before I go That I just want you to know I've found a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new and the reason is you I'm sorry that I hurt you It's something I must live with everyday And all the pain I put you through I wish that I could take it all away And be the one who catches all your tears Thats why i need you to hear I've found a resaon for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new and the reason is You I'm not a perfect person I never meant to do those things to you And so I have to say before I go That I just want you to know I've found a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new and the reason is you I've found a reason to show A side of me you didn't know A reason for all that I do And the reason is you walkingtarts awake and ranted on 6/15/2005 10:47:00 PM
haven't been updating here on a regular basis lately.. late nights.. tiredness.. and personal matters.. not forgetting the evil of all causes.. my laziness.. hahaha.. =p To: Colin & Peggy.. Congratulation! Stay Blissful & Loving Always! attended their wedding yesterday.. my first ever experience tagging along for most of the ceremonial.. kind of fun.. a different experience.. as the bridemaids are from all over Asia.. mostly HongKong.. their fluent Cantonese.. really make me hard to follow.. limited understanding of this interesting language.. the dinner at Regent Hotel ballroom was impressive.. 8 courses dinner.. 5 stars services.. and a table of jokers.. guess we're the only table that can go on talking and laughing non-stop throughout the whole dinner.. can't help it.. never meant to be quiet when put together.. =D went Suntec City to meet up with my poly friends after the dinner.. the ongoing of Great Singapore Sales.. crazy shoppers rushing to curb their very own shopping addiction in the Midnight Shopping event.. to see the crowd at such hour is so rare.. but not anymore.. not till this event is over.. another month to go.. each of them loaded with shopping bags on their hands.. it's good to get something that you will like during such sales.. but I left with empty handed.. no idea what to get for myself.. nothing seems to come into my mind.. just walk around with them.. had supper at Geylang before heading home.. recovered from my fever.. but throat still kind of dry.. the itch is keep lingering.. but least the fever is gone.. sick man tend to think too much.. hahaha.. especially sick and lonely man.. =p and worst of all.. after attending a wedding.. guess nothing got to beat that.. hahaha.. if I'm like Truman.. living in a world of playscripts.. I think that the playwriter hates me to the core.. =D this is my life.. uninteresting to others.. bored to others.. silly enough to be laugh at.. but.. undoubtedly.. my very own learning process in making.. =) TaKe CaRE!! I'm tired.. will you ever be there for me?? walkingtarts awake and ranted on 6/12/2005 03:36:00 PM
suddenly felt a little silliness in me.. even the simplest concern can be so amazing.. totally get me over the moon.. how silly of me.. might have some good news coming up by the end of this month.. while keeping my fingers crossed on the bad.. =) TaKe CaRE!! sillily infatuated.. with you.. walkingtarts awake and ranted on 6/11/2005 03:33:00 PM
feeling a little feverish now.. but much better than what it is earlier.. the weather nowadays behave as erractic as the tyrant.. having enduring for one freaking year.. I don't know how much longer can I hold on to it.. if not for some reasons.. and for this some reasons that come.. really put me in a dilemma.. I think I should calm down a little.. kind of letting my mind run wild.. leaving little space for myself to breathe.. each step at a time.. a grip too tight.. will easily break what is within.. too loose.. it'll just slipped away.. sometimes.. I really wish that I could simply express myself easily.. but in each attempt.. I held back.. what really got into me?? TaKe CaRE! walkingtarts awake and ranted on 6/08/2005 09:41:00 PM
[tub thumping.. and thumping..] well.. feeling quite good of late.. it's wonderful to feel these way.. hopefully this will last a little longer.. I'm not greedy to ask for forever.. one just got to be complacent with what he have.. and not what thinking of what is likely to be missed.. just be simply happy.. =) at the same time of this little joy appearing in my life.. something crop up too.. it's quite an irony that a friendship built over many years.. become so strained in weeks.. as a common friend.. I really don't know what I can do.. hope that this little conflict can be solved soon.. hate to see this group of peoples going on separate ways.. it's like a fine scratch that runs in deep.. was pretty tired yesterday.. but really happy.. looking forward to more similar chances again.. TaKe CaRE!! walkingtarts awake and ranted on 6/06/2005 10:02:00 PM
the ever familiar feeling creeps in.. excited.. nervous.. dumbstruck.. tiring evening last night.. travelling to and fro.. nonetheless.. happy.. for how far this will go.. I don't really know.. caught rathjer off guard.. reciprocation is all that i need.. will there be?? walkingtarts awake and ranted on 6/02/2005 07:08:00 PM |
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