escaping mundanity & normalcy..

[Jesse McCartney - Beautiful Soul]

my mind seems troubled in my last entry?
hmm.. can say so.. even the most optimistic
person in the world have problems that
can't be solved by themselves.. I'm only a
40% optimistic.. 40% pessitimistic.. 20%
slacker in life.. compare to years back.. I
should consider myself a much improve
change in term of optimism.. =)

I'm fine.. just need some times for my mind
to generate properly for what I choose to
want in my future.. many things came into
my mind.. practical.. realistic.. materialistic..
whatever you like to put it.. all these that
took a trip in my mind... requires one really
powerful thing.. Money..

about my leg.. received a good news from
the doctor last week.. at least there's no
need for me to go for an operation to
reconstruct my ligament for the time being..
but still got to continue my physiotheraphy
to work on the injury.. more or less feeling
stronger.. hoping it can go pain-free within
the next 3 months.. so that I can continue
with my weekly soccer game again.. can't
wait for this day to happen.. I'm dying to
run around the court once more..

weekend was late nights.. and more late
nights.. meet up for late coffee session at
Breko on Friday night.. suppose to watch
White Noise.. but.. due to some unforseen
circumstances.. we end up meeting at the
cafe instead..

went Heeren to meet Leonard and Suzie
for dinner @ Sakae Sushi on Saturday..
slacked a while @ Spinelli before heading
down to Mohd Sultan to meet up with the
rest.. Double O.. quite happening.. but no
one was really drunk.. didn't really had
a lot of drinks as compared to the previous
trip there.. spent most of the time dancing..
had WanTon Noodle @ coffeeshop before
going home.. almost 5a.m before I get to
fall asleep..

meet up again on Sunday evening for
dinner @ Ang Mo Kio.. something light
was suggested.. porridge.. after a whole
week of heavy meals.. this is something
that is most welcome.. went to Breko
again after the dinner.. stayed till past
midnight before heading home.. finish
watching the whole Carling Cup Final
match between Liverpool and Chelsea..
an exciting match.. despite my favourite
team lost it.. at least they aren't playing
really bad throughout the game..

can't wait for my trip to Redang.. really
hope to get by this week as soon as
possible.. terribly need a break away
from here.. in need to recharge myself..
and to get back the tan I had in Phuket
last year.. counting down @ 10 days.. =D

shall blog again some other time..

TaKe CaRE!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 2/28/2005 10:55:00 PM

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

[Enigma - Return to Innocence]

I wonder..
am I trying to be different?
or am I trying too hard?
all I want is to change..

obstacles will be my learning agents..
failure is my knowledge to success..
determination is the factor..
it's my undying determination that
keeps me so far..

I hate failure.. who doesn't?
but it accompany me through some
parts of my life.. each time.. failure
never failed me.. but it didn't kill
me too.. in fact.. I've learnt to accept
failure.. and move on.. for that.. I
truely believe.. acquiring success
through failure.. taste much sweeter
that success itself..

I wonder.. but not wandered..

TaKe CaRE!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 2/23/2005 10:55:00 PM

Sunday, February 20, 2005

[nearly recovered..]

was feeling not really well for the whole of
this week.. took MC on Monday.. didn't
really got much better.. kind of drag the
condition till now.. just keep waiting for the
time to drift away faster towards weekend..

spent much of my weekdays evening away
at Coslab.. learning ropes from the people
there.. share their knowledge.. learn new
things.. quite interesting.. putting all these
together into some good uses.. sure to
benefit a lot in me.. somehow.. see a little
change taking place in me.. hoping it's
something good.. who wouldn't want it to
be?? right? =)

weekend suppose to be full of events.. but
not for this.. haven't really recovered.. just
spent the whole of Saturday afternoon
away.. watching TV.. or reading online
news articles.. meet up with Willy, Patrick
and Tony for dinner @ Millenia Walk.. went
to Starbucks after the meal.. was really
breezy over there.. enjoying our latte and
countless topics during conversations..

set my alarm clock for 9a.m this morning..
suppose to go over to the court to watch
them played soccer.. ended up waking only
at 11a.m.. meet them for lunch at the coffee
shop instead.. only Willy, Patrick, Morgan,
NoNo and Tai Kia was around.. the rest of
them went home after the game..

at least.. this weekend was spend quite
rested.. unlike the previous few.. all the late
nights.. drinking.. and eating.. fun as it was..
but kind of strained both my physical and
financial health a little..

some dose of fun over dull weeks is fine..
overdose will not be that good.. =)
perhaps.. I'm not really pretty much a
party person.. okok.. sure to have some
people here going to disagree with me.. =p

hmm.. planning for the Redang trip over
March.. had somewhere come to conclusion..
finally showing some headway.. just can't
wait for this day to come soon.. going back
to the embrace of the Sun.. the Sand.. and
the Sea.. =D

some turn of events might take place lately..
nothing much to say about it though.. just
wait to anticipate them.. there should be
some serious planning need to be make after
the Redang trip.. got to see how things goes..

going back for my re-appointment with the
doctor on Tuesday.. wonder if I could avoid
the surgery.. hope that I could recovered
without going through the surgical knife..
but it seems quite impossible.. whatever the
outcome will be.. sure have to make sacrifice
with part of my lifestyle for quite a period
of time.. until now.. only have to pray hard
for myself..

shall not keep this long and lengthy like the
previous one.. sign off here..

TaKe CaRE!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 2/20/2005 10:45:00 PM

Monday, February 14, 2005

[holiday hangover..]

still linger with the slacking momentum.. one
whole week just passed by in a flash.. craving
for more.. well.. who ain't greedy? =p

did not manage to update last week as I was
out most of the time.. spending this festive
week running about.. more than enjoying my
much needed rest.. shall begin from..

Monday 07/02

meet up with Karen for her last minute
shopping for her Chinese New Year clothes..
as usual.. late.. use to wait for girls anyway..
went Suntec for our lunch @ Swenson before
she begin with her hunt.. did not find anything
of her liking @ Suntec and City Hall.. proceed
to Bugis.. drop by my sister's workplace.. did
not get anything @ Bugis too.. except for that
1kg of Bak Gua.. went over to Orchard.. final
destination before she meet up with one of her
colleague.. finally got herself a dress and pants
for the occasion.. not forgetting that Lacoste
handbag.. waited for her colleague to arrive
before meeting Morgan and Patrick @ Harbour
Front.. went over to Queensway to do some
shopping.. this time is my brother.. still haven't
got anything for the day.. ended empty handed
again.. went Anchor Point for dinner..

meet up with LKY and Benson @ Hello Orchard
after the dinner.. Benson wanted to change his
current BroadBand access plan.. then down to
Cineleisure for their dinner.. Ah Heng came by
to meet us.. suppose to meet up with Ah Wee &
Co.. but some things cropped up.. ended with
LKY going home.. Ah Heng meeting his friends
@ Madam Wong.. while Benson and me went to
catch Flight of The Phoenix.. quite a nice movie..
saw Fiona Xie & Co hosting some CNY program
on the stage when the bus I took pass by China
Town.. hmm.. quite petite.. =p

Tuesday 08/02

had Reunion dinner @ home.. actually.. not much
of symbolic for us.. just follow custom.. because
such dinner happens all the time in my family..
meet up with Willy, Patrick, Tony and Chee Wee
@ Taps On Bar after the dinner.. located @
Central Square.. not really an interesting place..

walk over to Tanjong Pagar for supper.. to the
prata shop Benson recommend.. well.. as suppose
to what he said.. the Cheese Prata is nice.. I can
only say.. Egg Cheese Prata is so yummy.. =p

Wednesday 09/02

1st day of Chinese New Year.. went to Long
Shan Temple @ Racecourse Road in the late
morning to meet up with my parents.. pay
respect to my late maternal grandfather.. his
annivesary since 2003.. visited my 3rd Aunty
@ Henderson after that.. she just had her ankle
ligament reconstruction surgery a few days
back.. will not be able to walk proper for at
least 6 months.. had our lunch @ Bukit Merah
KFC.. nothing much else to eat during such time..

went to visit 4th Grand Aunt @ Telok Blangah
Cresent.. before going to 5th Aunty's house for
dinner.. had mahjong session with Karen, my
brother and sister after the dinner.. although
I'm winning the most.. did not get anything
back in my pocket.. haiz.. nevermind about
that.. just play for the fun of it.. =)

Benson came over to my house to pick me up
to meet XingZhi, LKY and Ah Mei @ Bukit
Gombak Alif for supper.. already had prata
for the previous night.. so ordered Mee Rebus..
which is not a bad choice too..

Thursday 10/02

meet Willy, Patrick and Bryant for dinner @
Clementi.. then meet Morgan to go down to
Taps On Bar again.. Tony came over too.. and
the conclusion is finally revealed.. none of us
like that place after all.. wanted to catch a
movie @ Plaza Singapura after that.. but most
of the shows are not really available.. went
Fong Seng for supper instead.. another Halal
supper.. went over to Great World City after
that.. bought tickets for Seoul Raiders.. not bad
I would say.. not definitely not worth watching
for $8.50 loh.. another late night home..

Friday 11/02

meet Benson and LKY for lunch @ Suntec..
had porridge buffet.. hmm.. nice.. simple fare..
yet so nice.. Collin join us a while late.. went
over to River Hong Bao.. maybe we were too
early.. most of the stalls are not operating yet..
nothing much to explore in a hot and humid
afternoon.. went back to Suntec.. Benson
getting his A-Wire glass frame @ C.E.D.s..
while Collin went home.. the 3 of us went over
to Queensway.. but the spectacles shop is
not operating.. have to come back the next
day.. went home for dinner.. before meeting
up later in the evening..

suppose to go China Black.. but the queue was
very long when Benson, Ah Heng and me reach
there.. change of venue.. Mohd Sultan.. as some
of them does not prefer Devil's Bar.. Madam
Wong was the priority.. but the queue was so
demoralising.. end up going Double O.. joining
the 3 of us are.. XingZhi, Ah Mei, LKY, Ah Wee,
Adeline, Pauline, Ah Ho and Jackson.. Ah Heng's
2 female friends join us too.. don't really catch
their name.. too noisy I think.. places with such
a cheap price for drinks.. ended up with drunkards
will not be much of a surprise.. hehehe.. =p

went River Valley Road for supper.. and yes..
muslim food again.. had maggi goreng this time
round.. 4 days of halal supper..

Saturday 12/02

meet up with Chin Leng @ Tiong Bahru.. visiting
our ex-IC's house @ Simei.. lost our way walking
around the place.. still manage to find the exact
location eventually.. Changi Rise Condominium..
not a bad place.. quite spacious.. except the heat
during the search for this place.. catch a bite @
Burger King with Chin Leng, Vee Teck and Puay
Shen after that.. went back to Tiong Bahru.. catch
Constantine alone.. nice show overall.. a couple of
corny parts.. that brought out the laughters..

meet up with Ah Wee, Adeline, Benson and LKY
@ Paragon after the show.. wanted to have some
drinks at Coffee Club.. but didn't want to wait too
long for the table.. end up moving over to River
Hong Bao to meet up with the rest.. XingZhi, Collin,
Pauline, Ah Ho and Jackson joined us.. explore
more of the place.. while some of them went for one
of the rides.. went Simpang Bedok for supper after
that.. another muslim supper.. =p

took a break @ East Coast Park after that.. chat a
bit before heading home..

Sunday 13/02

went over to Coslab office at noon for the CNY
celebration.. Lao Yu Sheng.. usual practice for
most business.. also collect red packet from our
big boss.. Dr Andrew Ler.. although it's just a
Big Sweep ticket for March.. but it's the thoughts
that count.. stay on for some briefing before
heading home for some rest.. meeting up with
my buddies again for dinner.. this time is for
Tony's birthday celebration.. actual should be on
the 17th.. but Bryant is going back to Australia
to continue his studies next week.. so we have
it earlier.. another gathering before everyone
meet up again..

went to Safra Mount Faber after the dinner..
wanted to watch the game between Manchester
City and Manchester United.. had some karaoke
session while waiting for the game to start.. ended
up with United winning the game.. 2-0..

Monday 14/02

hmm.. St Valentine's Day.. I'm stuck with this
word again.. another year gone.. to say just
another day..

start work again.. still in holiday mood.. slack
the whole day acting busy in the office.. no one
is having the mood to work too..

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a long entry.. thanks for taking your time reading
all these.. if you don't mind.. read it again..
hahaha.. just joking.. anyway.. shall end here..
continue some other time.. many things to share..
but too long winded already..

TaKe CaRE!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 2/14/2005 11:20:00 PM

Sunday, February 06, 2005

[not feeling well..]

stomach kind of troubling.. don't really know
what went wrong.. hopefully it won't last for
a long time..

quite happy actually.. knowing that I need
not go back to work from tomorrow onward..
hehehe.. factory shut down.. only to be back
for work on the 14th.. a week of breakaway
from work.. and that tyrantic idiot.. =p

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I wonder.. am I correct to say that, people
tend to ward off from risk taking as they
grow older?

should this be the right way to lead our life?

complacent with what's in front of us.. having
to believe that we can live comfortably with
a good job with stability.. holding on a good
academic certificate.. all these will help us to
go through the rest of our life comfortably?

I really doubt so.. job security is the last thing
that is stable.. who can predict when will be
the next economic depression?

complacency is a type of fear.. and I'm pretty
sure about that.. for being complacent with
what we are having now.. we are holding on
the fear to change.. the fear to see changes
that revolves around us.. fear of losing the
luxury and comfort.. instead of analyse the
result of the changes that might take place..

for this.. many people lose their opportunity
take may change their life better.. even when
it's just right in front of their nose.. all these
are just because of the fear ( to change ) that
instill in them..

or is it I'm abnormal? because I've been
taking more risk involving activities as I
turn older? i really don't know..

some might hurt me.. but some thrive on..
as long as it's not a matter of life and death..
I consider worth taking.. even when failed..
a lesson learnt.. knowledge gained..

perhaps.. you might think I'm naive.. =)

I'm seeing some changes taking place..
whether it's a good thing or bad.. I'm glad
that I didn't back off in the beginning to be
able to come this far.. and there's still a long
way down the road..

taken a route less travelled...

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enough of say.. a week of blank schedule..
still not pretty sure of what's coming for
this Chinese New Year..

meeting Karen to do some shopping with
her tomorrow morning.. might be meeting
up with buddies in the afternoon.. still yet
to be confirm..

schedule left uncharted till the 12th.. going
to my ex-IC of Sai Yok Camp.. George's
house for lunch.. missed his house warming
last December..

and Tony's birthday treat @ Sakae Hikaru
on the same evening.. anyway.. got this
japanese namesake from his invitation..
which means.. Rong Guang.. -_-" made the
group of us scratches our head to think of
where the place is located..

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well.. brain kind of congested at the moment..
shall end here.. looking forward to slack all
my time away.. hahaha..

TaKe CaRE!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 2/06/2005 10:40:00 PM