escaping mundanity & normalcy..

[happy.. but bored..]

no one is taking the initiative to do planning for
today's activity.. that's why I'm stuck here
writing this entry..

missed my entry on Wednesday due to some
personal or also can be said as work problem..
was already midnight when I reach home.. head
straight to bed after shower and dinner.. an
unhealthy pattern, but cannot care less.. need to
get some sleep before waking up for work..

been reaching home late for this couple of days..
either working or meeting up with friends.. was
Willy's birthday yesterday.. went to meet up with
the rest at Wet & Whistle.. didn't meet them for
dinner, as I was having driving lesson earlier..
it was also the 2nd last day of operation for this
KTV Pub.. unknowingly, we've already patronising
this place for nearly 3 years.. coming to an end as
the owner decided not to continue after this year..

went Lau Pat Sat to grab some bites before going
home.. rushing to get to bed as soon as I reach
home.. had a quick shower.. packed some of the
neccessary stuffs.. so as to be less hurried when
I wake up the next day..

had my driving practical test this morning.. was
so tired.. didn't have enough sleep.. didn't have
any practice before the test too.. apart from the
one I had the night before.. maybe it's due to the
rain.. vehicles on the road were pretty slow and
vast.. did quite a number of mistakes.. luckily..
still manage to scrap through with 18 points..
perhaps I'm quite lucky.. an auspicious date..
with the weather giving me extra advantage..
and certainly.. pure luck.. hahaha.. but, at last..
after 3rd attempt.. the last day of 2004.. I got
my long awaited driving license..

still waiting for my friends to come out with the
itinery for tonight.. discussing over in MSN now..
hopefully can come out with some results..

shall end here.. the last entry for 2004.. shall
continue in 2005..

Happy New Year!!

TaKe CaRE!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 12/31/2004 05:52:00 PM

Sunday, December 26, 2004

[sleepy..]

just came back from town.. went to catch a movie
at Cineleisure.. the current hit in town.. none other
than Stephen Chow's KungFu Hustle.. really worth
the $8.50 spent on it.. and not forgetting the 2 years
of wait for another comical production from him..

Friday.. Christmas Eve.. went Pauline's house for
potluck.. what a feast.. turkey.. honey baked ham..
smoked salmon.. roast beef.. mashed potatoes..
salad.. etc.. too much to mention.. too busy eating
than noticing it.. hahaha.. had gift exchange after
the dinner.. went Jurong Point to catch Meet the
Fockers after that.. well.. another funny show.. but
definitely wasn't anywhere near KungFu Hustle for
sure.. no further activities.. went home after it..

Saturday.. Christmas Day..!!! had my driving practise
at noon.. went all the way to a particular mailbox to
send a Christmas card.. then meet Leonard and Suzie
at Lot 1 for lunch, while waiting for others to arrive..
having BBQ at Ah Wee's condo..

went for a swim before setting up for the BBQ.. spent
the whole evening cooking at the pit.. quite irritated by
the smoke from the pit.. but was enjoying the process
of cooking though.. especially when people appreciate
or praise the food that I've done..

played "Zhong Ji Mi Ma" at the end of the day.. really
had much fun over it.. went to take shower before
heading down to Seletar Reservoir to continue with our
talk cock session.. only to part our way after 3a.m.. nearly
4a.m.. log online till 5a.m before tiredness caught up on me..

Sunday.. Boxing Day.. overslept till 8.30a.m.. was 30min
late for soccer with my buddies.. rushed over after brushing
up.. had a couple of good game before call it a day at noon..
all of us were feeling rather tired after that.. took my shower
upon reaching home.. came online to check some stuffs.. it
was quite windy.., causing me to feel sleepy.. took a short nap
in the living room.. woke up by an sms from Heng.. went off to
meet Benson and him for prata at Prata Place.. follow by the
movie.. and then eat something at ABC market before coming
home.. and here I am typing this now..

tired liao.. only had a total of 8 hours of sleep since Friday..
well.. it has always been this case for every weekend.. but
at least for this week.. there's still another rest day for
tomorrow.. holiday-in-lieu.. hahaha.. some spare time to
replenish some energy back to my system..

got to go.. shall update as soon as possible..

TaKe CaRE!!!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 12/26/2004 10:40:00 PM

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

it's Wednesday....!!!

haven't been updating my whereabouts lately..
perhaps I should just write what I want here..
instead of just updating my movements here..

weekends are rather hectic lately.. was away
from home most of the time.. at least it's better
than wasting my time idling at home..

one more week towards the end of 2004.. a year
that many changes take place.. good or bad..
pleasant or not.. knowledge gained.. character
built.. memory lost.. friendship bonded.. enemies
made.. family reunion..

Christmas is just a corner away.. kind of planned
throughout the weekend from Friday evening
onward.. hopefully everything will carry out as
per organised.. nothing goes wrong.. nobody is
unhappy.. just relax and enjoy..

this should be all for tonight..
anyway.. Christmas is also the 1st year annivesary
for this little space of mine..

MeRRy ChRiStMaSss!!!!

TaKe CaRE!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 12/22/2004 10:30:00 PM

Tuesday, December 21, 2004

heart racing..

for not a valid reason.. i think..
just couldn't pluck out the courage
to express my feeling to her.. even
though she is right here.. as in..
her msn..

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-Precious Moment-

how do one define precious moment?
this is how i defined mine..

moments that i spend with her alone..
regardless the relationship we are
engaging is just pure friendship..

moments where i can render my helps
to her.. and she accepted.. and i felt that
i'm at least able to do something.. might
not be significant.. yet meant a lot to me..

moments where i sneak a few peek on
her from far or by her side.. the glimpse
of her near me.. the sense of false
contentment.. though i know.. engulfed
by this same feeling of being so near..
yet so far..

moments of precious doesn't always need
to be special and unique.. moments like i've
mention as above.. are simple.. yet precious..

we don't always wait till we lost someone/
something, before we learn to treasure..

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damn.. hate to be such a wimp..
she went to bed.. a good night to her..
going off to prepare for tomorrow..

well-prepared Today..
for a better Tomorrow..

TaKe CaRE..

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 12/21/2004 11:00:00 PM

Monday, December 20, 2004

i like..

i like the way she dress up to the occasion..
i like the way she looks serious at times..
i like the way she display her emotion..
through good or bad.. happy or sad..
i like the way she talk.. the way she laugh..
the way she breath.. the way she sleep..
the way she say "angry".. or any words..
i just like the way she is..

it's just so simple.. yet touched me deep in
the heart..

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 12/20/2004 11:00:00 PM

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

pondering for 5 minutes before I actually start..

notice that I've been feeling pretty tired nowadays..
this is not something good.. got to be more cautious
from now on..

brain is kind of congested.. can't really put things in
place.. so much in mind.. so difficult to express..

met my cousin, Karen at Jurong Point after work on
Monday.. she wanted someone to accompany her to
buy some clothes.. since I'm working this near.. just
render my availability to her loh.. free anyway.. quite
a spender she is.. collected her year end bonus mah..
gave my 5 cents worth of opinion when choosing..
not forgetting passing some lame remarks on her.. :p
she've already got use to it.. afterall, no other relative
is as close to me as her liao..

Tuesday was a fine day.. because tyrant was away on
medical leave.. hahaha.. got to do things at my own
pace.. not that slacking.. just that I hate people keep
popping by to check out on me when I'm doing work..
tyrant is tyrant.. never like people to work out of their
rules.. but too bad.. he hired me.. wrong move.. been
opposing him in quite a number of incidents recently..

today was a fine day too.. except for the occasional
spot check here and there.. dumping of more tasks to
me.. trying to get me back to work on New Year's Eve..
which I'm taking my driving test on that fateful day..
hahaha.. spoilt his plan.. destroy his short moment of
happiness for almost getting me back..

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hmm.. bored.. so bored.. think i'll end here..

TaKe CaRE!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 12/15/2004 10:30:00 PM

Sunday, December 12, 2004

[if only you were here..]

hmm.. feeling rather uncomfortable right now..
stomach kind of troubling me.. can't seems to
figure out what's wrong with it.. hoping it will be
fine by tomorrow.. don't wish to be working at
this state.. when the tyrant is back from Hong
Kong.. and to face him again.. what a dread...

kind of drizzling in the morning.. therefore,
soccer game cancelled.. head back to sleep..
slept quite late.. around 6a.m.. always home
late during weekends.. luckily my parents
ain't complaining much.. woke up at around
noon.. took a light lunch.. switch on both my
PC and my brother's lappy.. side by side..
while surfing online on my PC.. watch a few
episode of Initial D on the lappy.. kind of
multi-PC tasking.. but my brother took back
the lappy to hostel.. only have this aging and
failing PC.. went Funan IT Mall to check out
the Trade-In Fair in the afternoon.. turn out
their valuation of item is very low.. my 1 year
old digital camera with full accessories only
trade of a mere $50??? I must be mad if I'm
going to agree on that..

Friday:

went to Ah Wee's condominium again after
work.. play tennis and swim.. went there by
myself.. surprisely, the security did not ask
me for identification.. no words.. perhaps I
look like the resident there while holding on
to my tennis racket.. hahaha.. :p went to
Clementi Teck Hin for dinner after that and
home.. went to sleep after shower.. kind of
tired after the work out..

Saturday:

went back to work in the morning.. can't
believe I still manage to get myself out of my
bed and head off to work.. sort out a couple
of my reports.. then went off at noon.. driving
lesson at 1p.m.. wanted to meet Leonard at
Rivervale Mall after that.. just when I'm about
to reach.. he called to say he is caught in the
rain at Tiong Bahru.. won't be able to reach
there early.. ended up taking a cab to Meridien
to meet Vee Teck for lunch.. my very 1st meal
of the day.. walk around Orchard.. accompany
him to buy gold ring.. then meet Benson at the
Borders.. took our time to read magazines till the
others arrive for dinner.. went to Cineleisure to
meet the rest.. had our dinner and bought the
12.05am National Treasure tickets..

walk around after dinner.. felt my legs breaking
away.. been going round and round Orchard from
afternoon till then.. took a break at Coffee Club
till the movie start.. overall.. the show was not
back.. kind of corny..

went River Valley for light supper.. planning for
this coming X'mas.. someone suggested potluck..
I'm not pretty sure I'll be in for that.. wanted to
find another place to chat.. but can't seems to
name a suitable place.. so go home.. came online..
while watching Girl Next Door on the lappy before
going to sleep..

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don't think will be staying up late tonight.. beside
that troubling stomach of mine.. fever seems to be
just round the corner.. kind of sense it coming..

shall end here.. time for dinner too.. kind of hungry..

TaKe CaRE!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 12/12/2004 07:30:00 PM

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

[eyes twitching..]

wonder what it means.. but it means nothing
most of the time.. :p

got back from work not that long ago.. cook my
own dinner.. dry egg noodle.. my speciality..
my Mum was eyeing on that for quite some
time.. deliberately miss out my share of dinner..
so that she can taste a couple of mouthful of it..

went Jurong Point to meet Karen after work on
Monday.. initially staying back to work.. but give
up the idea since she ask me out.. she need to get
some office supplies.. can't decide what to eat over
there.. so we ended up at Clementi for dinner.. had
the boneless chicken rice.. had never patronise the
stall since I graduated from Singapore Polytechnic
in 2001.. still taste as good as ever.. went home
after she packed dinner for her Mum and Sis..

Tuesday.. came home late again.. went to meet
my buddies at CAN Cafe after work.. working OT
though.. only took my dinner when I reached home
at around 10pm..

things are going on fine for me these couple of days..
perhaps it's due to me avoiding some of the stuffs..
didn't want to make a big hoo-ha out from trivial
matter.. also quite preoccupied by the amount of
projects I'm handling at the moment..

someone comment that my blog is very emotional..
hahaha.. it's the fact that human are born emotional..
if not.. how come we cried the moment we are born??
ok.. I'm being lame again..

it's better to be emotional that heartless right?
signs of emotion shows whenever we met different
situation.. some shows through faces and body
language.. while some hide their feeling.. but still
could be see through their eyes.. anyone who doesn't
show.. probably dead..

2 more weeks to X'mas... I'm not a Christian.. but
I'm just like any typical Singaporean.. looking forward
to the public holiday.. breaking away from the troubles
of work.. partying may not be for me.. but enjoying the
free time will be.. some plans for this coming holiday..
hopefully.. will be a fruitful holiday.. :)

shall sign off here..

TaKe CaRE!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 12/08/2004 09:30:00 PM

Sunday, December 05, 2004

[lethargic..]

to talk about today.. I've to start with Friday..
read on and you'll know why I'm lethargic at this
very moment..

Friday:

rush home after work to change.. meeting at
Ah Wee's place for tennis and swim.. Ah Heng
came and pick me up.. then meet Guo Yao and
Ah Mei for dinner at Jurong Point for dinner..
meet up with Collin, Jackson, Xin Zhi, Benson
Zhi Hao and Pauline at Ah Wee's place..

went over to Prata Place @ Upper Thomson for
supper.. while some of them went home after the
meal.. Ah Heng, Guo Yao, Ah Mei, Ah Wee and me
end up at Holland Village Breko after we couldn't
decide on which moive to watch.. choices kind of
limited.. reach home around 3a.m.. took a shower
and head straight to bed.. planning to wake up for
work in around 2 hours time.. but end up overslept
as usual on weekend..

Saturday:

slept all the way till 10a.m and prepare myself for
my driving lesson.. hehehe.. finally resume lesson
after 2 months.. almost forgotten about that if not
for my instructor who call me up the other day..
ended my lesson at 2p.m.. went over to Ah Wee's
house to meet him for lunch.. but ended up having
dinner instead.. pick up Collin from his home.. and
went to meet Ah Heng and Benson at Borders..

book room at PartyWorld @ Shenton.. sang from
10p.m till 2a.m.. follow by supper at Clementi..
the coffeeshop besides the interchange.. after that,
Xin Zhi went home with Guo Yao and Ah Mei.. while
Ah Heng, Ah Wee, Collin, Benson and me went to
West Coast Park.. didn't know there's a MacDonald
over there.. went over to the Pyramid.. find a spot
at the top of it to sit down and talk about a lot of
stuffs.. talk until we lost track of the time.. and it
was already daybreak when we knew it.. waited for
MacDonald to start serving breakfast at 6.30a.m..

Sunday:

reach home at around 7.15a.m.. took a shower and
start reading the Straits Time I bought yesterday
morning before I left home.. hahaha.. went to meet
my buddies for soccer at 8a.m.. surprisingly.. I still
got the energy to chase after the ball despite being
severely lack for sleep.. finish the game at around
12p.m.. went to coffeeshop for lunch..

reach home at around 1p.m.. took my shower.. had
my lunch.. cook instant noodle.. didn't eat at the
coffeeshop.. no appetite then.. hit straight onto my
bed after that.. continue with the Straits Time I've
not completed earlier in the morning.. still didn't
manage to complete though.. fell asleep at around
2p.m.. wake up for dinner at 7p.m..

this is why I feel really really lethargic at this point
of time.. wonder if I will be able to fall asleep later..

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time flies.. it had been exactly one year on the 3rd
December since I came back to Singapore from
Thailand.. completed my National Service in June..
started a new working environment.. getting on
with a new phrase of life.. learn to hold more
responsibilities.. be it family or between friends..
or love ones..

25 already.. kind of late for a beginner.. need a lot
of catching up to do.. like Xin Zhi said.. need to
focus.. cannot scattered the thoughts.. focus on a
single subject at a time.. if not.. failure will be the
next best friend..

really have to start planning for the year 2005..
it's just 26 days away.. not that long.. but neither
it is a short time from now..

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got to end here.. shall update again..

TaKe CaRE!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 12/05/2004 10:30:00 PM

Thursday, December 02, 2004

[ 因为。。。]

因为想一个人而寂寞
因为爱一个人而温柔
因为有一个梦而执着
因为等一个人而折磨
因为想一个人而解脱
因为爱一个人而宽容
因为有一个梦而放纵
因为等一个人而漂泊

hehehe... this is a song by 范玮琪, title as
above.. very nice.. was once background
for my weblog too..

what mood am I in now?? frustrated I
would say.. am I in the wrong?? sort of
feeling I'm digging my own grave at the
moment..

ok.. I'm anti-social at some point.. well..
most of the time if you want it to be..
socializing with people is not an agenda
in my everyday life.. I mean.. when there's
no need to put up a pleasant face to chat
up over topics over the world when I've
no intention to do so..

what makes thing worse will be someone
forcing to socialize.. treating it as an order
over me.. thinking that I will feel itimitated
by his order.. like real..

some situation rises at my workplace.. which
I don't deny I'm in fault partially.. but who
like to be push around right? even patience
have it's limit..

really have to reaccess everything in my life..
practically everything is not in order at this
moment.. several factors hitting the red area
soon.. need lots of work to put them back in
place.. to really do what I really want to do..

hopefully I can sort them out.. cannot keep on
with this current state.. there'll definitely be
no future for sure..

Take CaRE!!

因为想一个人而寂寞
因为爱一个人而温柔
因为有一个梦而执着
因为等一个人而折磨
因为想一个人而解脱
因为爱一个人而宽容
因为有一个梦而放纵
因为等一个人而漂泊

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 12/02/2004 10:50:00 PM