I smell like papaya milk right now.. hahaha..
all thanks to my sister for getting me a tube of papaya flavour moisturizing lotion.. but really touched loh.. a simple guy like me.. only required little to touched my heart.. :p ok.. next.. I'm just a paranoid.. hahaha.. maybe I'm really one.. nevermind.. what have I done this few days?? other than work.. most probably is to meet up my friends.. meet Guo Yao, Ah Mei, Yong Xing and Ah Wee for dinner at Suntec's Pasta Fresca after work on Friday.. well.. food was alright.. but service was bad.. perhaps due to lack of serving staffs.. walk around Suntec for a while before Ah Wee pick up Adeline at Clementi Party World.. went Holland Village's TCC to chill out.. stay all the way till aroud 2a.m.. with Guo Yao around.. with his crappy antics.. there's sure to have tonnes of laughter.. :D meet up with the same group again on Saturday.. with the additional of Jackson, Benson, KST, Judith and her friend which I don't know who.. I have no intention to know her anyway.. hahaha.. went to Madam Wong.. it was Halloween Night.. it has been nearly 2 years since I step into clubbing scene again.. did I miss it?? nope.. out of a sudden.. something just cropped my mind in MW.. was not in usual self for the rest of the night.. only a few people know what happen.. yet.. I did not get into details with them.. because I trusted them.. I let them know a bit.. but not everything they are not suppose to know.. really hope my trust for them won't be a disappointment.. only sleep for 90 minutes before meeting my buddies for soccer at 8a.m.. with my strained calves after a night of clubbing.. and lack of sleep.. my runnings are just so poor.. in another word.. I'm just getting old.. :p Morgan comment something during lunch.. said that my mind is always casting dark clouds.. just like this weblogs.. which personally.. I think is true.. but I just couldn't help it.. this is just a part of me.. how am I suppose to change it? replace another? not a solution.. physically right now.. I should be totally shagged out.. but my disobedient mind is disturbing me again.. sometimes.. I'm find it rather awkward that, in my personal "dark cloud" idealogy.. I can come out with pretty optimistic opinions to motivate someone.. kind of weirdo isn't it?? really wonder I'm suffering from split personalities sometimes.. with my frequent memory loss.. even if I'm really suffering such illness.. I also won't be able to find out.. at least my parent still haven't send me to a mental hospital.. this shows I'm still pretty alright.. :) hmm.. kind of like my msn nick currently.. hahaha.. so original.. kind of poetic.. but still reflect so like me.. rubbish.. :p couldn't paste it here.. because I have this problem with the setting that allows me to view chinese character on my weblog.. sian.. TaKe CaRE!! Seng Tat‘s 歪理。。 真爱无需占有。。 伤心未必永远。。平淡也是快乐。。你的微笑。。我的幸福。。 walkingtarts awake and ranted on 10/31/2004 02:35:00 PM
[still on holiday mood..]
can't seems to drag myself out of the lazy mood.. my wandering mind.. heavy eyes.. aching body.. hahaha.. but still crave for more of such trips.. had been blogging practically everyday since I got back from Phuket.. hit by a moodswing out of no- where.. give me some times.. it's been quite some time since I last behave this way.. pardon me.. :) finally it's midweek.. 2 more days to weekend.. looking forward to it.. need more time to adjust myself.. especially after what my supervisor told me earlier.. "I'm not going to hire or reshuffle another person to help you with your workloads.. you just have to face them yourself.." damn.. how can like that?? this isn't fair.. I'm working like dog everyday.. handling multi-personal tasks.. and not forgetting some irritants.. you said something like this to me?? just because you are getting promotion.. I've to abide to whatever rule you passes down?? hell no!! although I won't be protesting upfront.. I'll still perform my own duties.. until the day I hand up the letter.. no warning will be given.. since you always said you manage the whole thing before I'm hired.. I'm pretty sure you can carry out the same excellent performance if ever I'm out of here.. hahaha.. scheming me.. :p well.. end of Phuket trip.. next will be Bangkok in December.. hahaha.. got to work more OT for this few weeks.. got to replenish my bank account.. drying up after the trip.. still.. worth it.. no regret.. okies.. got to end this now.. going to meet my buddies at Tiong Bahru for coffee now.. still waiting for Milo to upload the photos taken during the trip.. :) TaKe CaRE!! Love don't need a reason.. walkingtarts awake and ranted on 10/27/2004 08:09:00 PM
[afraid..]
struggling with the decision to write or not to.. so much to say.. yet couldn't find a single word to describe.. how beautifully a sentence can be phrase out in our mind.. yet a slightest moment of indecisiveness.. blank the mind.. loses the simple ability to type out those lines.. is my mind deteriorating? or I still couldn't muster enough courage? or do I have the courage in the first place? what is going on with me? ain't I suppose to feel better after the holiday? well.. honestly.. the holiday is definitely well spent.. but the thoughts of my work place deters every little moment of joy in my heart.. what's more.. to witness another round of "war" in the office on my first day back.. plus some irritants bugging me for deadline which can't be met.. wonder if most people try to use their brain to work.. or should I say.. use their eyes.. why can't they see the fact that I'm the only one handling those unwanted mess? why can't they spare a thought for me.. like they wish their supervisor spare a thought for them? why can't grown-ups be more grown-up? Morgan wrote these (translated).. "Happiness in the child's world can be simple.. In my own world, simplicity is a sort of happiness" these.. I totally agree.. simplicity is definitely one of the key to unlock happiness.. but most of us just forget about this as we grow older.. because.. simplicity is seldom a word associate with words like Sophiscated or Ambitious.. I wanted to lead a simple life.. may seems like a person without goals.. but as long as there's enough to get on with a normal life.. what is there more to ask for? anyone share this view? or disagree? well.. my initial thoughts of a short entry had turn this lengthy.. got to sleep.. TaKe CaRE!!! it take 2 hands to make a clap.. it take 2 hearts to start a relationship.. but takes forever to maintain one.. walkingtarts awake and ranted on 10/26/2004 11:02:00 PM
[procrastinate..]
what am I procrastinating? I don't really know.. guess my mind is running wild again.. hate this feeling.. wonder why I can't just be a bit stronger? nothing felt good since the moment I lifted open my pair of eyes.. the despairing thoughts of going back to work is just too overwhelming.. at this moment.. a smile will just fade into thin air in just a split of an second.. but there's no other choice now.. just have to hit the routine and carry on till I figure out better solution.. sometimes.. I really don't know what I really want.. am I such a greedy person? or being fickle-minded? in what rights can I be fickle-minded? I can never be the one to choose.. most likely to be choose.. argh.. forget it.. don't want to carry on.. will I ever changed? or be changed? another not so good entry.. got to get myself asleep now.. hope tomorrow will be a better day.. which I seriously doubt so.. how happy can I be.. surrounded by a bunch of hypocrite?? I'm just another fool.. TaKe CaRE!! walkingtarts awake and ranted on 10/25/2004 11:08:00 PM
[complicated..]
my little break away from work is going to be over soon.. thinking about it.. really very sad.. really hope that this break can be extended for another few more days.. yesh.. I'm back from the Phuket trip.. the best description to be use for trip definitely will be.. I'll definitely go back again.. simply love the slow pace of life.. relaxing by the beach.. exploring new stuffs.. will write more about the trip next time.. perhaps upload some pictures that we had taken over there.. currently.. aching all over.. tired.. but something cropped up in my mind.. that keep me awake.. still find it so difficult to forget about something I wanted to give up long time ago.. perhaps, this will not be forgotten afterall.. because I'm just a simple human being.. an emotional creature.. I've once too often going for something that most probably I shouldn't be after for.. but, if I never put an effort to find out.. how would I know if I am doing the right thing? at least there's a result, but also a risk of destroying certain thing.. be it my personal characters.. or upbringing.. I'm just not strong enough to accept or face it.. yet, there's nothing I can do most of the time.. damn.. hate to be such a loser.. Time passes by every single seconds.. a blink of an eye.. a breathe of warm still air.. a lift of finger to type the correct alphabet.. especially during the Time of enjoyment.. it run faster than usual.. how I wish to be back at this little haven again.. haiz... this entry doesn't reflect much about the enjoyable holiday at Phuket.. will definitely make up of it.. either tomorrow or some other time.. really need some time to sort out my thoughts.. hate these feelings.. inferiority.. cynical mind.. procrastination.. end this now.. need to get myself to sleep.. hopefully, I'll forget about these when I wake up later.. which, is just impossible.. Nite! walkingtarts awake and ranted on 10/25/2004 02:00:00 AM
[tired..]
[but happy..] yes.. finally going for my holiday.. really looking forward to it.. not because of the place.. but it's because, I'll be away from work!! hahaha... :p got to keep this short.. need to sleep soon.. still got to continue packing my stuffs tomorrow.. went to Lot 1 to collect my policy from my agent.. she was having roadshow over there.. manage to reach there without being drenched by the heavy rain.. suppose to meet Willy, Morgan and Stan for coffee at Tiong Bahru.. but end up going with Yong Xing, Benson, Ah Mei and Adeline.. so sorry guys.. I'll make it up to you all when I'm back.. :) shall update about my trip in Phuket when I'm back.. hopefully can manage to snap some nice photos to upload here.. going off to sleep liao.. TaKe CaRE!!! walkingtarts awake and ranted on 10/20/2004 11:52:00 PM
[excited]
ok.. I'm trying to do this without MS Words.. I'll try to minimize the number of grammer and spelling mistakes.. so bear with me.. hmm.. how come nobody believe me when I say.. "I'm a honest, kind and innocent guy.." please.. don't puke.. hahahaha.. give face lah.. wonder why this verse always couldn't convince them.. hmm.. enough of being lame.. who will get enough of it?? hehe.. currently in a happy mood.. even though I find it quite bored to stay at home now.. but who cares.. my mind has already drifted to Phuket.. hahaha.. can't wait to step my feet on the Land of Smiles again.. Benson had plan part of the itinerary for this trip.. can't wait to anticipate in them.. jetski.. kayaking.. wonder will I have enough courage to try bungee jump over there.. hehehe.. scary thoughts.. and not to forget.. suntanning.. hahaha.. can suntan until overcooked.. :D hmm.. back.. went to play Bejeweled with Sharon just now.. hmm.. she had broken my high score already.. but, actually I didn't really know what's my high score before that.. hahaha.. usually just play for the fun of it.. maybe next time.. her high score is my motivation liao.. :p went to meet Ah Wee, Yong Xing, Benson, Jackson, Guo Yao and Ah Mei for dinner.. also to help Guo Yao to choose his Oakley shades @ C.E.D.S Suntec City.. finally got his Half-Jacket with the vouchers we gave him for his birthday last week.. had dinner at Crystal Jade La Mian Xiao Long Bao.. hahaha.. seems like we are frequently patronising this restuarant.. food nice mah.. hahaha.. yummy.. after that.. move over to East Coast Park to fetch Adeline before we went over to Pasir Ris Park.. just slack around at Fisherman Village.. chat about the oncoming trip.. and many more.. till they felt hungry again.. then Nasi Lemak at Changi Village.. hahaha.. didn't eat.. as I'm about to sleep.. seldom eat if it's near my sleeping time.. have to be a bit conscious.. hehehe.. got this from an email from my cousin.. Keep Optimistic Regardless of Every Adversity hmm.. quite interesting.. in short.. this sentence actually form the word KOREA.. there are still many others.. but particularly like this one.. :) 4 more days.. yippy!! TaKe CaRE!! walkingtarts awake and ranted on 10/17/2004 04:20:00 PM
[happy..]
today my supervisor is on MC.. hahaha.. no one is there to bother me.. at least I can do my own stuffs.. practically everyone is happy lah.. hahaha.. yah.. talking about him.. only remind me of the threat he tried to give me yesterday.. I applied for my leave for next week due to the Phuket trip.. he threaten not to approve the leave unless I complete 8 hours of OT before I go for my leave.. yah right.. he really think I will relent to this.. he was damn wrong loh.. whatever he tried to make me do.. I just reply him with a straight "No!" actually 8 hours of OT can be easily obtained.. just that I don't like to be threaten.. in the end.. he say he don't want to approved.. but I won't just give in loh.. gave him a solid solid reply.. "don't approve.. don't approve loh.. anyway, I've already booked my ticket.. you want to charge me Absent Without Leave.. charge loh.." hahaha.. still he LPPL lah.. no choice.. approve my leave loh.. lucky he didn't push further on.. if not.. I confirm "sack" him first.. :p trying to test my water sia.. see me no up.. went to my godfather's wake since Sunday evening.. everything were fine.. my godmother looks tired.. but at least the mood there wasn't that saddening.. played with my nephews and nieces.. well.. I'm like a total stranger to them.. as I haven't been in contact with this family of mine since donkey years.. kids are always so cute and adorable.. today is the funeral ceremonial.. I did not attend.. went to work.. don't know why.. just don't feel like attending it.. lucky for me.. my parent did not make any complain for my decision.. it's Wednesday.. hehehe.. weekend is just round the corner.. 7 more days to Phuket.. hahaha.. so happy.. finally having a well deserved long break away from those people.. oh yah.. as I've talk about in yesterday's entry.. the cousin of mine.. flipping through my stuffs in my handphone.. read some stuffs which are not meant for disclosing.. and keep bugging me about those stuffs.. idiot sia.. shouldn't have let her take my phone.. one wrong move.. :p today at the office was quite fun actually.. involving in intensive e-mail conversations throughtout the whole day.. between Adeline, Benson, Alvin, Jackson and me.. all from different companies.. hahaha.. k lah.. enough for today.. hehe.. TaKe CaRE!! walkingtarts awake and ranted on 10/13/2004 08:50:00 PM
[tired..]
just got back from the wake.. being going there for the past 3 days.. well.. stay there for a while.. chat with some of my relatives.. play with the kids.. kids are so adorable.. and.. my cousin Karen.. wah lau eh.. go and scan my handphone contents thoroughly.. dig out so much of my secrets.. :p another person said I look like Lee Hsien Yang again.. kaoz... do I look that old?? is that a compliment?? something happen in my office today.. had an arguement with my supervisor.. trying to itimitate me.. hahaha.. wishful thinking.. shall elaborate on it further tomorrow.. finally I'm going for my holiday!!!! hehehe.. :D TaKe CaRE!! walkingtarts awake and ranted on 10/12/2004 10:52:00 PM
about to sleep.. listening to this song..
since I've already written my entry in that unearthly timing.. I won't write another one.. as there's nothing much to write too.. just want to upload this song.. to share with you people.. I'm sure Morgan will love this song.. hahaha.. enjoy.. have a nice day at work tomorrow.. TaKe CaRE!! walkingtarts awake and ranted on 10/10/2004 11:35:00 PM
[tired..]
[sleepy..] [had fun..] [unhappy..] lots of mood now.. conflicting mind of mine.. just got back home from Guo Yao's birthday celebration.. his treat at Brekz.. while our's at Party World Shenton Way.. so much of fun and endless laughters with a bunch of jokers.. this is a group of friends.. just like my group of buddies.. no matter how busy in life we are.. we still try to squeeze out some time to meet up once in a while.. I'm really glad I have this two group of friends.. why am I unhappy? well.. firstly.. my sleep in the morning was disrupted by a sudden raise of voice out in the living room.. from my dad.. one of my cousin infuriated him in a phone conversation.. which my dad think she didn't show a single bit of respect for an elder.. this is a problem of a big family.. I have 3 uncles and 6 aunties.. how often do I see them?? hmm.. I really can't give you an good answer.. some of them.. I never even visited them for once during Chinese New Year.. the most probable place where I see them if only one of them or their family member passed away.. what so good about a big family when relation is this bad.. there are more to say about them.. but I think I will save this strength to do other thing than to type them out.. the second thing that disturb me is.. death of another relative.. in fact.. this relative is my godfather.. actually.. he is my eldest aunty's husband.. in most situation.. people in this type of relationship should be quite closely knitted.. but for my case.. it just turn out to be opposite.. there was never once I knew of a visit by them since young.. the born of this relationship tie with them is just probably for namesake.. if not for my dad who tell me about his death.. I had already forgotten I got another such "family" brand me as unfillial for not attending the wake tonight.. as you wish.. I don't feel a single shame or guilt.. after so many years.. there were not a single contact.. even a simple one.. I don't even know how they look like.. they never show a single concern about me.. they were not even there when I lost my hearing of my left ear.. they were not even there I failed my O level.. honestly speaking.. I only find this relation redundant.. yet.. I still have to make myself to attend the wake for the next couple of days.. Wednesday will be the ceremonial.. doing all this just for the sake of my parents.. hmm.. write about other stuffs.. my driving test.. hahaha.. I manage to fail for the second time.. :p I failed.. but I was not very sad.. in fact.. I really have to thank the tester for giving me plenty of guides.. got to be more prepared for the one on New Year Eve.. hahaha.. and.. I live up to my old nick again.. yeah.. MuDdLe.. for those who still remember.. during those crazy days in mIRC.. hahaha.. for my muddleness.. I mistook Eve's friend for her sister.. because they really look alike.. and it's been more than 2 years since we last met.. ironically.. at the same place and same seat too.. hahaha.. ok lah.. tired liao.. writing this entry on such unearthly hour.. all because I feel that I might not have the time to do it later in the afternoon or evening.. good night everyone.. TaKe CaRE!! I've decided to let nature take it's own course.. but still.. some things are unable to erase away from the heart easily.. blame my foolishness.. walkingtarts awake and ranted on 10/10/2004 03:56:00 AM
[rush..]
got to finish fast.. have to meet my buddies for coffee at Tiong Bahru.. well.. I'll be lying if I say I'm pretty fine today.. the matter of fact.. how could I be?? especially when I'm going to face those people in the morning.. in a few months time.. i might find myself immune to all the snakes around me.. of all sizes and shapes.. when in fact.. mostly look like bloated one.. hahaha.. :p how can I be so bad.. saying such thing about them?? but.. how come I don't feel any sense of guilt too?? hehehe.. what the hack.. I got the freedom to say what I want here.. particularly when most of them know nuts about "Internet".. hehehe.. *evil grin* sounds like I'm going to do something sinister.. I won't loh.. I'm at least maintaining some sense of a gentlemen.. don't puke! it's Wednesday again.. yeah..!! it means weekend soon.. look forward for my long weekend.. taking no pay leave on Friday.. even though on leave.. still have to wake up earlier than usual some more.. damn.. nevermind.. just have to brave this through for once and all.. striking one thing of my mind.. momentarily.. I was playing with the Glow-In-The-Dark Piggy Wrist Rest on the table.. kind of cute.. soft.. hehe.. almost forgotten this incomplete draft.. my computer is getting of age lately.. act so cranky.. keep prompting obvious hint for a change.. well.. Dear Computer (Compaq Presario 3610AP), if you are reading this.. rest assure.. I will give you an extreme makeover.. provided if you bless me with all the luck that I'll strike 4D top prizes for both this coming Saturday and Sunday.. Warmest Regards, Seng Tat Your Co-Owner p.s: don't cling your hope on the other two owner.. hahaha.. ok lah.. enough of my lame entry.. may all bless with good luck and health.. get well soon.. :) TaKe CaRE!! walkingtarts awake and ranted on 10/06/2004 07:14:00 PM
what a fine day..
I need a break.. stop pushing me around.. I'm not a ball.. and I still doesn't look like one.. no longer see the sparkles in my eyes.. despair has taken over.. all those morons are killing me mentally.. someone.. please show me the light.. brainwashing is not advisable.. so are all the deep thoughts.. rotz........... walkingtarts awake and ranted on 10/05/2004 11:06:00 PM
[just wake up..]
[nasi lemak.. yummy..] it feels so wonderful to sleep till the Sun shone brightly on your butt.. had my breakfast + lunch.. going for my driving session later in the afternoon.. hopefully nothing will go wrong this time.. 6 more days to test date.. hehehe.. Thursday.. went to meet an insurance advisor after work. Even though I had already insists that I won't be getting another policy, she still want to meet up for some planning stuffs.. anyone of you wants to take up insurance policy? I can introduce her to you.. hahaha.. :p meet my buddies at Tiong Bahru Ya Kun for a short while before going home.. I've been going home late for the past 3 days.. hee.. Friday.. be a good boy. didn't plan to go anywhere after work.. just stay at home to hunt for new songs to add into my collections.. hee.. surprisingly.. I slept at 11pm on Friday.. that was so early.. guess I really drained myself up through -out the whole week.. Saturday.. went for my driving lesson at 5pm.. then meet my buddies at Lau Pat Sat for dinner.. nonetheless.. head down to Wet & Whistle again.. hahaha.. watching soccer, singing and talking cock as usual.. meet up with Xin Zhi, Jackson, Benson, Ah Wee, Adeline, Ah Mei, Yong Xing and Laura after that.. planned to watch movie.. but seats were bad.. so we went over to Kent Ridge Park to sit down and talk cock.. it was quite crowded there.. we just rot there till some time past 2am.. before we finally make our move home.. oh yah.. the holiday trip is finally heading somewhere.. hahaha.. so excited.. TaKe CaRE!! walkingtarts awake and ranted on 10/03/2004 01:42:00 PM |
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