escaping mundanity & normalcy..

[childish..]

i don't want to grow up!!! hahaha.. really loh.. deep in
my heart.. i really wish i'm back in my school days with
my friends again.. regardless back to secondary school
or poly.. this two stage meant a lot to me..

still feel stress at work.. but still alright loh.. a little bit
of stress won't kill me right??

what really bothers is the politics loh.. hee.. again.. what
we experienced in school time is just superficial compare
to what i'm experiencing now.. snakes no longer only have
2 heads.. they come in multiple heads.. multiplying their
amount as and when they like it.. hahaha.. scary hor??
what's my weapon against these long and slimmy thing??
my "gong gong" smile loh.. that's what i do best for the
pass quarter of a century.. act blur.. hahaha.. so as to ward
off any misunderstanding.. stepping into any mess won't
do me any good.. why bother to get involve?? hehe.. my
own logic to these problems..

Monday.. took no pay leave.. instead of having sufficient
rest on off days.. i seems like getting more tired.. actually
took it because of my driving test in the morning.. wake
up at 5am.. earlier than my usual time.. reach Bukit Gombak
at around 7am.. go for another round of practise before the
test.. finally the test.. well.. personally i think i've done my
best.. in my mind.. i know that if i pass, it's only due to luck
on my side.. that's why.. i FAILED!!! hahaha.. and i'm not
sad over it.. because i really feel i shouldn't pass yet.. score
a high of 40 points.. but did not get any immediate failures..
at least i keep a clean sheet over that circles.. hahaha.. some
achievements over bad results..

went to the dentist to fill my tooth.. accidentally break my
old fillings the night before.. got a hole in one of my tooth..
kind of fun letting water flow in between it.. hahaha.. ok.. i
know i'm childish.. :p thought only need to fill up one tooth..
but in the end.. there are 3 of them.. really burn a hole in my
wallet for that..

rest a while at home after that before meeting my friends
for a swim.. need to tan my skin a bit more.. kind of fade
away.. not very sunny.. didn't really up to expectation.. so
just swim more loh.. maybe a trip to Sunset Bay might be
more efficient.. hehehe..

meet my cute insurance agent in the evening.. comparing
to my other agent.. she is very bubbly loh.. hehe.. went
down to Orchard to meet her and sign up for the policy..
some might think it's a waste of money.. why get myself
financially strained by these insurance?? well.. for me.. i
think i'm making a long term investment loh.. something
bank can't give me in the same amount of time.. will be
meeting her again next month for policy confirmation..

reach home pretty tired.. drop onto my bed quite early..
with my mind already switched off long ago.. hahaha..

Tuesday.. went back to work after a longer break.. get
back to the hectic pace of work again.. feel so tired the
whole day.. can't seems to open my eyes fully the whole
day.. as usual.. OT again.. i think my supervisor is mad..
keep asking me come back to work on Saturdays and
Sundays.. as for Saturdays.. i still can compromise a bit..
but Sundays?? No Way!!! i will go mad from work if i'm
going to work like this.. i need breaks from work.. no
matter how much money i can earn.. i still need times
for my family.. friends.. and also S.H.E if i have one..
hehehe..

Wednesday.. yah.. another Wednesday.. my most
beloved day of the week.. weekend is coming again..
yeah.. hahaha.. OT as usual.. thought that my stuffs
at Epson is complete.. but i was wrong.. just when
one part is completely.. another situation arise.. have
to go down to the warehouse again tomorrow.. haiz..

ok.. one major thing down.. my driving test.. now is
the next major thing.. will be celebrating National
Day on this coming Friday and Sunday.. hahaha.. no
lah.. i'm not that patriotic lah.. i'm celebrating My
Day.. but still have to work.. no choice.. i'm still under
probation.. 5 more months to go.. sian.. wonder how
will the weekend be like.. hopefully i'm concious.. :p

that's all for today folks.. shall post again soon..
TaKe CaRE!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 7/28/2004 09:59:00 PM

Monday, July 26, 2004

Your element is Water: Understanding, intelligent,
quiet and calm. You know who you are and no one
can change that. Usually quiet but only because
your listening, don't let anyone think you
haven't got an opinion! Your not quiet because
your shy or sad, your usually quiet because
your thinking. Your answers are well planned
and helpful so people generally seek your
advice. Your the perfect balance between
solitary and outgoing. But sometimes you need a
little time to yourself to sort out your
emotions and figure things out. You understand
the phrase 'sticks and stone' and rarely let
things get to you, whats that important for you
to have to get so upset over? You know what you
want out of life but are simply taking your
time and enjoying things. To you your life is
fine as it is, you can always change things
later if your not happy.

.:-What is your true element?-:.

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 7/26/2004 10:05:00 PM

Sunday, July 25, 2004

[slack..]

kind of lazy to come out with titles nowadays.. so, might
as well drop the titles.. :)

weekend is coming to an end soon.. but i need not report
to work tomorrow.. hehehe.. took no pay leave.. because
i'll be having my driving practical test tomorrow morning..
have to wake up early.. very early.. got registered for the
first group..

just had a good laugh.. all thanks to Jacky Wu and his
disciple, NoNo.. tricking some of the taiwan artistes..
really laugh my heart out.. this variety show will be
showing on Channel 8 at 7pm every Sunday..

Thursday.. no OT again.. hahaha.. have been trying hard
to escape from OT this couple of days.. kind of tired.. but
the reason for rushing home is because, i'm meeting my
friends for kopi session at HarbourFront.. can't really make
myself work day in day out mah.. need some rest.. sitting
down at the Starbucks.. enjoying our Fraps.. talking about
everything under the Sun.. joked around.. while keeping
our eyes busy on people passing by.. hee... :D

meet my friends for dinner at Holland Village on Friday..
went to eat X.O Sliced Fish Beehoon.. well.. i don't really
like the X.O part loh.. find it too strong.. but the Hor Fun
was great.. so are the Shrimp Paste Chicken and Fried
Shrimp Rolls.. yummy.. :p~~

walk over to TCC for some chilling out after the meal..
the waitress who i think the name is Lini.. if i didn't
remember wrongly is like super friendly.. kind of cute..
hahaha.. from the initial 5 of us who were there.. was
join by one of my friend's friends at the other table.. abd
that's not the end.. the amount of people in our table
grew too.. from 5 to 11.. it was so crowded in the cafe..
attracting quite a number of attention.. coincidentally,
another group of friend's friends also drop in.. sitting at
another table.. the whole upper level of TCC is filled with
friend's friends' friends.. hahaha.. so messy...

left TCC at around 1am.. went over to Pasir Panjang for
supper.. they had Small Bowl Noodle.. while i just drink
my Green Tea.. don't really like to have a full stomach
before i sleep.. went home on my friend's scrambler.. it
have been quite some times since i ride.. was thinking
whether i should learn riding or not.. hmm.. ponders..

Saturday.. finally had my 8 full hours of sleep.. slept till
12pm.. so refreshing.. had my lunch and get prepare to
go for my driving lesson later in the afternoon.. kind of
blur.. thought my slot is 4pm.. but actually is at 4.30pm..
i'm like 30mins early.. what to do.. just wait loh.. meet
my friends at Lau Pa Sat for dinner.. as usual.. went over
to our usual joint after that.. decided not to stay till too
late.. moreover, i've driving lesson the next morning..
and one of them will have to take taxi home if he miss
the last train..

hmm.. event of activities are more or less planned for
the next week.. tomorrow is one of the major event
for the coming week.. follow by Friday.. and of cause..
Sunday.. gonna drained quite a lump sum from my
savings for these events.. hahaha.. luckily it only
happens once a year for the Friday and Sunday dinner
treat... while tomorrow's, i really hope it's just the once
in a lifetime experience.. one time and get the job done..
even went to Kuan Yin Temple to pray after my lesson
in the morning.. always pay a visit to the temple when
there's a major event coming in my life.. sort of calming
myself down.. finding some hope for myself loh.. sounds
pathetic.. but.. it's fine with me.. it's fine with many others
who are there..

hmm.. had my hair cut too.. wanted to keep it short..
hahaha.. kind of opposite from my brother.. while he
had his hair short before his NS.. and now kept it long..
well.. not those very long.. else my parent will be nagging
him more.. haha.. while i kept mine short after NS.. maybe
i'm just lazy to manage long hair.. hehehe.. keep it short
and hassle free.. save on shampoo and conditioners too..
hahahaha..

hmm.. that's all for today.. well keep this space updated..
as usual.. Wednesdays and Sundays.. looking forward for
August.. to take my first drawn full salary.. and also the
much long awaited public holiday.. National Day.. hehe..
Sunset Bay??? hopefully loh.. kind of like a place for us
to unwind ourselves from work.. shall not blabber any
longer.. TaKe CaRE!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 7/25/2004 08:10:00 PM

Wednesday, July 21, 2004

hehehe..

[Wednesday..]

yeah.. i'm in the mood for Wednesday.. countdown
to weekend begins.. hehehe.. ever since i start to
work.. weekends become more precious.. more than
what i feel during my NS.. don't know why..

rush off to my driving lesson after posting last Sunday..
meet up with my friends after that.. reach Taka at about
8pm.. move over to Spageddies @ Paragon for dinner..
nice place i would say.. definitely worth another visit..
that's not the end of it.. went to Selegie Road for Soya
Bean Curd.. it's been quite some time since i ate this..
around 2 years or so ba.. still so yummy delicious.. : p~~

Monday.. went to Epson again.. finally complete the task..
was told that there's no need to come again the next day..
what a relieve.. hahaha.. my supervisor was on MC.. i'm
all by myself again.. find something to do.. stay back for a
little bit of OT before going home.. hehe.. basically doing
nothing.. not with him around..

Tuesday.. although don't need to go down to Epson.. but
still have to work on the product in the company.. sian..
have to oversee the production on two projects.. although
my supervisor is back.. but he did not OT.. but ask me to..
stay till 7pm loh.. was in a fix whether to stay until the
product is complete or to leave.. choose to leave.. because,
no more transport after 7pm..

Wedensday.. today.. like a lot of things to do.. run here..
run there.. can't seems to find time for a short break..
being at this place for about 3 weeks or so.. slowly the
place begin to unveil it's true form.. yeah.. think you might
know what i mean.. office politic is unavoidable in each and
every working environment.. regardless whether it's a very
reputable multi-national corporation or a small scale local
company.. you'll never escape from it.. what to do?? just
have to bear with it.. what ever i hear.. just smile and let
it roll over.. not going to step into this murky patch..

two important occasions drawing nearer.. hopefully i'll
do well for the first.. while loaded enough for the second..
hahaha.. what are they?? just don't tell you leh.. hahaha..
still hoping for another thing.. just.. wishing.. and hoping..
wishing and hoping that you will be there.. nice song.. :p
i'm just drawing myself deeper into the endless pit.. hope
that there's brighter path ahead.. the only brightness i
will like to see is... hmm.. just is.. hahhaha.. :p

ok lah.. going off soon.. need to get my much needed
sleep.. the evil aura of work is sucking up my energies
everyday.. but i still believe the good will not give up
a fight.. with a well deserved victory eventually.. hahaha..
start dreaming liao.. jia lat sia.. before i go.. here's a
question for some brain cracking time.. hehehe..

who is pink panther finding??

TaKe CaRE!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 7/21/2004 09:39:00 PM

Sunday, July 18, 2004

hmm.. rushing out..

[lethargic..]
better post in now as i might be home late tonight..
going for my driving lesson later at 6pm.. will be
meeting my friends in town for dinner after that..
most likely won't be online after i get home..

thursday was another OT day.. well.. which day i
don't? most of the time i'm working OT till 7pm..
went down to Epson warehouse again.. looks like
i'm handling them from now on..

friday.. down at Epson again.. most likely will finish
the work there some time next week.. keep going on
like that.. i wonder how long my savings can hold on..
i've been taking taxis more frequent than buses..
going down to that place and back to the company will
cost me around $20 each time.. thinking back.. i've
already accumulate at least $100 of taxi claims since
i started work 2 weeks ago.. super siong sia..

didn't do OT.. because, i'll be meeting my campmates
for BBQ @ the SAFRA chalet.. meet them at Tampines
before heading down.. play a game of pool.. catch a bite
before going.. too hungry.. besides, won't be able to eat
too much bbq stuffs.. got to keep my body system clean
for the medical checkup the next morning.. chat with my
ex-instructor and my most respected IC.. giving me
advises and some encouraging words for my new found
job.. if not for these people.. i won't be what i am today..
really glad that i've been learning ropes from some of
the best.. didn't stay over.. left for home around midnight..

saturday.. still have to wake up early even though i need
not work.. went to Jurong West again.. thanks to my
preserverance.. my result for the medical check is good..
meet my friend for breakfast.. as she lives around the
area.. she went to meet her kakis while i proceed to my
driving lesson.. don't feel like review too much on it.. it's
just disastrous..

meet up with my poly friends late at night for BBQ @
Seletar Reservoir.. one of our regular hang out spots.. sort
of welcome one of them who just got back from Aussie for
holiday.. finish the whole thing at around 2am.. tired.. came
online for a while before going to sleep.. one of them ask me
why i'm so quiet just now.. hmm.. just tired i think..

hmm.. going for my shower liao.. better end this quick.. don't
want to be late for lesson.. TaKe CaRE!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 7/18/2004 04:50:00 PM

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

irritated..

[read title..]

sian.. irritated by my dear brother.. always don't
put things back to original position after use.. end
up combing the whole house for an installation CD..
he's nothing but a lot of trouble to me.. but still..
he is my brother.. haiz.. just have to make do with it..

looking forward to this Friday.. will be meeting my
campmates again.. they are holding a BBQ at Changi
chalet.. but i will not be staying over.. have to go
for my medical checkup again the next morning.. not
forgetting my driving lesson.. will be meeting them
straight after work.. most probably at Orchard first..
then go down from there.. wonder how's everyone..

hmm.. okies.. have been doing OT for everyday since
last week.. every evening reach home at around 8pm..
but still ok lah.. compare to some others.. who are
even later.. working like a cow working out in the field..
slog and slog and slog.. work so much for the owner,
yet recieve minimum recognisation from them.. this is
the REAL world.. hahaha.. :p

ever since start working.. always been looking forward
to Wednesday.. because it's midweek.. few more days to
weekend.. time seems to pass faster after that.. maybe
it's just my imagination.. but i'm just happy with it..
little self-deception won't hurt.. hehehe..

in my mind.. there seems to be plenty of ideas.. plenty
of words.. but just didn't carry out all of it.. i think
i've fall quite deep into this.. especially this couple
of days.. feel so lost.. i really hate my procrastinating
mind.. delay so much of stuffs in my life.. miss out so
much.. if only i can turn back time..

haiz.. why?? why?? why??
wonder how is....?

can't seems to come out with anymore stuffs to write..
will update more on Sunday.. back to surfing my regular
stuffs after this.. got to get myself updated on some of
the current affairs going on.. don't want to be like a
hermit crab.. hiding in it's own shell for the whole day..
TaKe CaRE!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 7/14/2004 09:51:00 PM

Sunday, July 11, 2004

only if i know..

[refer to title..]

feeling kind of tired right now.. not physically..
more like mentally.. what has happened to me???
hmm.. a sudden change of mood last night.. thought
that might feel better when i wake up the next day..
but it turns out the same.. at least it did not turn
worse..

doesn't really know what went wrong with me currently..
especially last night.. talking without using my brain
during some moment.. due to alcohol or just plain tired?
most likely to be a bit of both..

went for pre-employment medical check-up yesterday.. was
told that the sugar level in my blood is a bit high.. was
pretty shock.. really must cut down my daily intake of
sweet stuffs.. also have to find some time out for a little
bit of workout.. haiz.. have to go back for another check-up
next week.. hopefully the result will be good.. even if the
result turn out to be good.. i still have to continue with
the prevention.. don't want this to happen again.. perhaps,
this is the reason why i'm feeling giddy lately.. really
have to be very serious with this now.. haiz..

don't feel like posting anything about my job.. tired..
life after NS.. after the day we collected back our long
kept away IC.. wonder how is everyone doing?? many, i
believe are waiting for their school terms to start..
some have already took up a job.. temp or perm.. while
some must be slacking away..

when we are young.. we always wanted to behave like an
adult.. given certain authority to do things we like..

when we've grown up.. we will be thinking how good it
will be if we can turn back time.. if only i can turn
back time..

i hate feeling like this.. i wanted to life myself up..
but just couldn't do so.. i really wish i have the
ability to do so.. sometimes i can.. sometimes i don't..
nothing comes perfect.. sure to have faults or flaws
somewhere.. somehow..

it's only early of July.. hopefully the rest of it will
be better than now.. hope the dark clouds casting above
me will cleared.. maybe in the next minute? the next hour?
or the next day? just want to feel fresh again..

sometimes, writing a post here really helps.. especially
when i've type out something that's in my mind.. and
simply hit the [Back Space] key.. it seems like the thing
has been erased.. escaping huh?? everyone have their ways
of handling their own problem.. but usually only have two
outcome.. facing or escaping.. choose one that is suitable
for the situation..

took quite a long pause.. mind wanders off somewhere.. in
fact, many places.. hope this wandering mind of mine will
settle down soon.. just hope.. haiz.. if only..

seems like there's some more stuffs to write.. but can't
find an appropriate way link up the whole things.. just
cast it one side.. not really that important i guess..
looking forward to the end of the month.. but not the
next.. will explain it if i have the mood to do so.. :p

ok.. feeling better.. no longer that bad now.. mainly is
because i found something great.. was browsing through
some new technology stuffs.. come across this wonderful
creation.. downloaded this software and link it here to
try it out.. all you have to do is to place your cursor,
a.k.a mouse arrow.. if u don't know.. :p to the wordings
that i've typed below in blue.. the computer will read
out the words.. great isn't it?? what an invention..
it has a library of more than 170,000 words.. the creator
come out with this initially to help his blind child..
on seeing result.. he decided to have his program to be
share by those in need.. try in out!!

this creation is simply amazing

nice huh?? if you want to download this program.. just
click here hope you will like it.. that's all for today..
TaKe CaRE!!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 7/11/2004 05:36:00 PM

Wednesday, July 07, 2004

i'm late..

[rush..]

going to post this out as soon as possible..
because.. the earlier i complete this.. the
more i can get to sleep mah.. hahaha.. :p
okies.. that's all for today!!! joking lah..
how can i end it so fast??

been having OT for the consecutive 3 days..
spend quite a lot on taxi fare.. was asked
to go down to Epson warehouse on Monday and
Tuesday.. damn big.. but super cock up..
give me a list of location to find the goods
of the company.. ended up running here and
there to find the exact place.. shifted all
the things to different places.. really waste
a lot of time.. but lucky can claim OT and
the taxi fare..

spend most of my time working.. nothing much
after work.. reach home.. take my dinner..
watch a bit of tv programmes.. come online..
wait for... hehehe.. :p nevermind.. spend the
time checking out news and other stuffs.. also
reading messages and emails.. thought of going
for jog.. but everyday come back so late.. how
to run?? hope still have the determination to
do it during weekends.. hahaha.. hopefully loh..

hmm.. i'm mad.. the busy i am.. the more happy
i become.. haha.. getting busier in work.. which
also means getting happier everyday.. maybe it's
due to the sense of accomplishment when a task
is complete.. some basic nature of a self-
satisfying human being.. hahaha.. i'm just so
shallow.. hmm.. ok.. simple.. but.. i really
find being simple is a good thing.. at least i
still manage to find a little bit of happiness
out from the simplest thing that appears before
me.. ain't that great?? exclude all the negative
feelings away.. just so relaxing.. come.. join me
up here.. it's really fresher.. :)

ok lah.. that's all.. this time is for real..
tired liao.. going to sleep.. good night..
TaKe CaRE!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 7/07/2004 11:04:00 PM

Sunday, July 04, 2004

feeling better..

[er..]

swinging with the beat of Take On Me.. hahaha..
nice songs i must say.. one very old song.. :)
keep repeating it on my window media player right
now.. it's nice to listen to it once in a while..
soooo.... relaxing.. hahaha..

i'm early today.. yes.. the first time that i post
in the afternoon.. well.. i've nothing much to do
anyway.. only waiting to meet up with a couple of
friends at our usual hunt in the evening.. still..
i can't stand out late.. somewhat or rather, i've
slowly begin to accept this fact.. adaptation to
changes is something we all have to face during
growing up.. we only stop if we really stop loh..
hehehehe.. mai blur... :p

in a lighter mood today.. why is it so?? well..
don't tell you.. hahaha.. actually.. nothing one
lah.. just feel so much better after some thinking
and chatting with some of you.. thanks for the time
hearing my complains and nonsenses ar.. you peoples
really are important part of my life..

like i've said in the earlier post.. air up here
is indeed fresher.. had enough of stale air and
dark times.. always follow the M1 way of life..
always look at the bright side of life..
hahahahaha.. think i've said this for numberous
time.. still.. i like it!!!

hmm.. change another song.. keep on repeating
will irritates others also.. which to put next??
hmm.. wait ar.. i search for a while.. found
this song.. 豆浆油条 (Dou Jiang You Tiao) by
JJ.. Lin jun Jie.. interesting title.. one of
my favourite food.. really miss the Geylang's..
*don't think too much* :p 豆浆 and 油条..

ah.. the month of July.. many things will happen
this month.. a couple of friends birthday.. of
cause.. including mine.. yeah.. treats.. yah..
i'm dreaming.. i'm not the recieving end anyway..
still thinking of where to go.. one of my friend
went over to Aussie this morning.. quite a number
of my friends are over there.. hmm.. so far..
next on the queue is my driving test.. just a
couple of days before my birthday.. really hope
to pass it loh.. it will be one of my best gift
loh.. well.. what's the best gift??? hmm.. er..
same everytime.. don't tell you.. hahaha.. :p

will be getting more and more busy with my work..
hopefully still have the time to drop my posts
regularly..

hmm.. this month don't have public holidays.. it
will be splendid if i can treat my birthday as one
of my public holiday.. hahaha.. this is something
that can over be done is SAF lah.. no more liao..
wishful thinking.. shall post again.. TaKe CaRE!!

我知道你和我就像是豆浆油条
要一起吃下去味道才会是最好
你需要我的傻笑
我需要你的拥抱
爱情就是要这样它才不会淡掉

我知道有时候也需要吵吵闹闹
但始终也知道只有你对我最好
豆浆离不开油条
让我爱你爱到老
爱情就是要这样它才幸福美好

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 7/04/2004 04:34:00 PM