escaping mundanity & normalcy..

[low..]

currently undergoing a big transistion.. much
bigger than what i expected.. things are so
much different.. and this is only my second
day at work.. back out is not an option at this
early point of time.. experiences is what i need
for this early phase of my life..

initially, i thought i lose my freedom to slack
at home.. but, yesterday.. i realize that i lose
my priviledge to stay up late on weekdays.. this
is something i've been doing for the past few
weeks.. going out to meet friends also need to
consider twice before making a decision..

ironically, i just told someone not to stay down
there ( as in feeling down ) for too long.. the
air up here is fresher.. one of my weird sense of
humour lah.. :p but i'm staying down here right
now.. i just got this ability to give advice to
others even though i'm having my own troubles..
like many other people has said.. this is one of
the character of being the eldest child in the
family.. no matter how unhappy i am.. how bad the
situation i'm facing.. there's this responsibility
to keep a calm surface..

i won't breakdown.. not so easily.. i must not
forget.. my weird sense of optimism.. if not for
this.. i couldn't possible come so far.. should
be able to get out of this mess soon.. must
quickly adjust myself to the new environment..
i can't possibly stay down here for too long..
the fresh air up there will start to miss me..
hehehe.. :p told you..

sometimes i really wish i could throw away some
responsibilities.. but i can't.. i am taught this
way from young.. i've seen the family gone through
bad patches.. now, it's my turn to help up in the
family expenses.. i've already started late.. don't
wish to create anymore trouble..

Monday.. went to the company for induction program
in the morning.. watch some video.. collect my
company pass.. get my letter of employment and some
other stuffs.. took about 2 hours.. went home after
that.. took a nap.. when my mum wake me up for dinner
in the evening.. i mistook it for morning.. jumped
up quickly.. wanted to get changed.. then was told
it's evening.. i'm getting stress..

Tuesday.. my official first day at work.. finding the
correct location for my company transport is really
tiring.. which i don't want to explain further..
okies.. i'm quite a racist.. not those hardcore type
lah.. just that i couldn't stand some.. and now..
i'm surrounded by so many malaysians.. and their
malaysian chinese that they speak.. they are polluting
me.. i'm going crazy..

Wednesday.. Today.. basically doing nothing for
today.. my supervisor is not around as he had to
rush to the plant in Batam last evening.. i am
left to do my own thing the whole day.. attend a
meeting.. which i find nothing much interesting..
well.. how interesting can it be in the first place??
spend the rest of my time walking around.. to the
toilet.. reading files.. falling asleep.. yes..
falling asleep in the office.. i'm too used to
sleep in the afternoon.. hehehe..

hmm.. voiced out quite a lot today.. good or bad..
i don't care loh.. need some place to release the
pent up stress.. feel so much better now.. but will
definitely be much more better if.. if.. if.. er..
hahaha.. don't tell you.. :p

hmm.. update again on Sunday.. hopefully i feel
much better by then.. TaKe CaRE!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 6/30/2004 09:37:00 PM

Sunday, June 27, 2004

i got it!!!

[happy but sad..]

hahaha.. don't be blur.. i'm happy and i'm sad at
the same time.. finally i reunited with my long
lost friend.. hahaha.. my beloved pink IC.. :p

Thursday.. meet up with one of my poly friend in
the evening.. need to shop for some clothes for
work.. luckily, with her around.. manage to get
some good deals and advices.. if i'm doing this
alone.. sure headache one.. it's good to have an
extra opinion from someone.. especially one from
the opposite sex..

Friday.. did not go anywhere.. spent most of the
time at home.. only to meet up with a couple of
friends for coffee at Tiong Bahru Plaza.. talk
about so many stuffs.. their school stuffs.. my
new jobs.. future matters.. social problems.. haha..
basically complaining loh.. walked to the hawker
centre for some light supper before heading home..

Saturday.. left home at 6.30am.. an ending to one
important phase of my life.. while the starting of
another.. collect my IC.. stay around to play one
more game of soccer with the guys.. really had so
much fun.. will be missing these days.. definitely..
went to one of my senior's home.. housewarming.. the
place is really very nice.. he really put in a lot
of effort.. beside the money loh.. hahaha.. quality
come with a price.. it's always this way.. left for
dinner at town in the evening.. thought of going to
Lips Cafe.. but forget that the one at CineLeisure is
no longer there.. so we walk across the Heeren.. had
our dinner at Crepes & Creams.. not really bad.. quite
full also.. then meet with another two of our friends
at Far East Shopping Centre.. they are playing billiards..
while i play pool with a few others.. it's been long
since i played.. more than half a year.. played the last
time in Bangkok.. it's nearly midnight when i got home..
did not come online.. too tired after a whole day out..
besides, there's driving lesson the next morning..

Sunday.. Today.. went for my driving lessons in the
morning.. 10am lesson.. send out sms after my lesson..
asking my friends to meet me at Bugis.. few responses..
meeting them at a later time.. wander alone at the area
in the mean time.. spend some time finding photo shop..
want to take passport size photo.. went to pray at the
temple.. been quite some time i visited the place.. always
filled with worshippers.. strolled around in Bugis Junction
before heading down to Suntec City.. meet up with them at
Heeren at about 4pm.. walk around Orchard.. take a rest at
Coffee Club.. while waiting for another friend coming to
meet us for dinner.. took our dinner at Crystal Jade.. i
really like the noodles and dumplings there.. always so
full.. spent another long day out..

will be heading to bed soon after i finish this post..
a brand new phase of life will be begining in a few hours
time.. still not sure if i'm ready for it.. hack care lah..
just take each step at a time.. any problem.. try to solve..
cannot solve.. ask.. cannot ask.. die loh.. hahaha..

BABY will become BOY after going to schools..
BOY will change to MAN during National Service..
what will MAN turn into after NS???
COW loh.. cause we will start to slog for our life.. :p

TaKe CaRE!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 6/27/2004 10:50:00 PM

Wednesday, June 23, 2004

time is running out...

[shag..]

i'm really very shag loh.. hahaha.. who to blame??
hmm.. myself loh.. self-torturing.. hee... :p
been involve in some physical activities this few
days.. swimming and soccer.. kind of pushing myself
to enjoy before next week.. hmm.. am i mad?? i doubt
so lah.. hahaha..

hmm.. do a little bit of recall about the activities..
Monday.. driving lesson again.. last driving lesson on
weekdays liao.. the rest will fall on weekends.. learn
reverse parking again.. ok.. i'm not very good at it..
still got a lot of room for improvement.. was told that
this coming Sunday will learn parallel parking..

Tuesday.. went swimming at Queenstown Swimming Complex..
second time in three days.. swim a bit.. spend some time
cooking myself.. as the weather is not that heaty.. didn't
really get any tanned.. proceed to IKEA for lunch.. while
waiting for another friend to join us for shopping.. had
a filling lunch at Burger King.. went to shop around in
IKEA.. wanted to buy a small cabinet.. finally got one
after some searching.. then move on to Queensway Shopping
Centre to walk around.. school holidays.. the whole place
is filled with so much youngster.. hmm.. think back.. even
though i live so near.. it has been quite some time i've
visited this place.. some changes took place.. but overall
still more or less there..

Wednesday.. that's today.. meet up for soccer.. one last
time before i start work.. before they start their tuitions
at various schools again.. maybe, there's the thinking of
unwillingness to stop this gathering temporary.. as they
are committed to tuitions on weekends.. while i'm committed
to work on weekdays.. keep pushing myself to run about.. end
up quite shagged.. played from 8am to around 11am.. then we
had our lunch at the coffee shop.. talk for a while before
going home.. fall asleep straight after shower.. but ended
up having to wake up in less than an hour.. my friend sms
me to play online pool.. almost forgotten it.. too tired to
remember it.. went back to sleep after that.. but again..
little is done.. called to meet for coffee.. luckily, only
have to go the coffee shop below my flat.. as my friend is
driving here.. there goes my afternoon nap..

hmm.. will be meeting a friend tomorrow evening.. actually
planned for earlier.. but due to some unforeseen circumstances..
will be meeting at a later time loh.. nevermind lah.. at
least can meet up.. :)

ok lah.. that's all for today.. promise my friend to write
him a testimonial at friendster.. really hope the start of
my working life will not affect my timing for blogging..
TaKe CaRE!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 6/23/2004 10:14:00 PM

Sunday, June 20, 2004

tOdAy iS FaThEr's Day..

[tired..]

ok.. father's day is on the third Sunday of June..
always can't remember whether it's on the second or
third.. went for dinner at Zion Road.. it has been
quite some time since we had dinner there.. really
very full now.. as usual.. a second helping of rice
for me.. it will be weird that i stop at one.. :p

join my friends for swimming earlier in the afternoon..
the world is just so small.. happen to see my to-be
supervisor there.. only manage to swim a little.. not
a good swimmer by the way.. spend most of the time
soaking in the water.. or sun tan by the side.. and yes..
again.. i'm red like lobster now.. :p

spend Friday and Saturday at home.. the only time i
step out of the house is to attend my driving lesson..
what a boring life.. hahaha.. can't think of any place
to go too.. don't really like to shop alone in Singapore..
so weird.. spend most of my time watching tv.. or idle
in front of this computer.. or my next favourite past time..
yeah.. if you really know me well.. sleeping.. :D

got a last minute call from my friend on Thursday..
heading down to Boat Quay after dinner at home.. as
i've driving lesson the next day.. i drank a little..
go home earlier.. as they decided to stay around to
watch the Euro soccer match between England and Swiss..
plan to go Sunset Bay one of the weekday.. before i
start work the following week.. still not very sure
if they want to go..

hmm.. my final week of freedom.. 6 more days to collect
back my precious 17 years old picture Pink IC.. after
that.. will be working life all the way liao.. not to
forget.. my plan to further my study privately.. hope to
begin by next year..

..dneirf tsuj er'ew ,ediseb .. osla ti ot esu evah dluohs
..hal lausu sa ..niaga dnuora ton s'ehs ..mmh

hahaha.. write so small.. wonder is to attract people's
attention.. or to let them miss out.. but writing this
way.. more likely to attract attention.. so.. just let it
be loh.. hahaha..

hmm.. more or less updated my activities for my last couple
of days.. shouldn't have miss any thing else.. cause there's
nothing to write when i spend most of my time at home.. just
less i write down to the very detail of my activities at home
too.. most probably ended up nothing to write too.. hehehe..
school holiday is going to over soon.. thanks me for reminding
you all.. hahaha.. i miss those days.. at least it's so much
better than working..

TaKe CaRE!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 6/20/2004 08:48:00 PM

Wednesday, June 16, 2004

a hunter gets his prey..

[Dilemma..]

on this point of view.. i'm really glad that
i got this job.. not a bad prospect.. a big
engineering company.. a fixed income.. nothing
like the meagre allowance of a NSF..

but one the other side.. it's really quite far
away from where i start.. was clinging on the
hope that the one nearer called me for interview,
but seems so unlikely.. also the lost of my recent
found freedom to slack..

well.. deep in my mind.. i do know that nothing
in this world comes for free.. so, i just have to
face the fact that i'm turning to working class
soon.. really very soon.. barely days after i take
back my identification card.. i've to report to my
new working environment on the next working day..
strike the iron while it's still hot.. some might
say.. but, is my timing too fast?? hmm..

more planning have to be done now.. no more driving
lesson weekdays.. have to sacrifice part of my
weekends for it again.. looks like i can start to
check out part time courses for my upgrading.. not
much of a hurry actually.. intend to start only early
next year.. besides, more or less decided.. only check
out for more choices..

went to watch "The Best Bet" last night at Tiong Bahru
Plaza.. well.. another great work produced by Jack Neo..
bringing up the most typical subjects of a Singaporean..
luckily for me.. i've little problem understanding hokkien..
the whole show was flooded with cranky hokkien phrases..
one can't help but impressed by their creativity.. can't
say it's a fantastic movie not to miss.. watch it during the
weekdays where tickets are only sell at S$6.50.. or happily
wait for the release of VCDs in weeks time..

it's Father's Day this weekend.. still thinking where
to bring my parent for dinner.. my sister and me are
still planning.. restuarant?? hawker centre?? kopi tiam??
running out of ideas.. and money too.. hahaha.. :p

kind of in a confusing state of mind right now.. due to
the job thing.. nevermind about that.. shloud be able to
bring myself to come in term with the fact.. i've my own
Ah Q way of picking myself up.. that's how my optimistism
comes about.. yeah.. just follow M1..

Always look at the BRIGHT side of Life..

many many things in my mind.. really hope that someone
is here to share them with me.. give me an alternate
point of view.. but where is the person?? haiz.. just
have to face all these myself at this point of time loh..
anyway.. i can always give myself many point of view..
making myself confused.. also on the others.. hahaha.. :p

hmm.. stomach is growling again.. not that serious..
had late lunch this afternoon.. got to catch a bite
after post this up.. looks like i might have some
extra cash to spend on my coming birthday.. :D
my friends.. TaKe CaRE!!

how do i come this far??
cause, i never give up on myself..

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 6/16/2004 07:24:00 PM

Sunday, June 13, 2004

圈圈圆圆圈圈.. 天天年年天天..

[Hungry..]

hmm.. dinner is cooked.. i'm hungry.. but
i'm still here.. i'm too use of eating late
everyday.. listening to Lin Jun Jie's new
song right now.. Jiang Nan.. yes.. the title
of my post today is part of the song.. i must
say this is one of the best song in this album
loh.. :)

everyone have their own intuition.. if mine is
accurate.. i think i might fall sick during this
few days.. seriously.. i hope it's inaccurate..
but, been slacking too much.. without exercising
at all.. definitely will fall sick easily..

another week is gonna be over.. had dinner with
my friends at Sakae Sushi on Friday.. follow by
kopi session at Tiong Bahru Plaza.. gatherings
are always so fun.. talk about anything under the
Sun.. making fun of one and other.. laugh off at
each other jokes.. after all.. that's 10 years of
friendship.. can't believe time passed by so fast..
seems like secondary school graduation is just some
time back.. life back then will become "once upon a
time.." liao..

went to Marina South last evening with my poly
friends.. one of them is celebrating birthday
for his girlfriend.. they had steamboat BBQ as
usual.. but i'd taken my dinner at home initially..
move over to Cafe Cartel @ Mohd Sultan after that..
it's been nearly 2 years since i last step into
this street.. it sure change a lot.. we had cake..
drink some coffee.. watch the very first Euro'04
match.. move off to Kallang KFC at half-time..
continue with much more talking cock session..
making quite a nuisance among ourselves.. it's
already about 4 a.m when i reached home..

suppose to meet my friends for breakfast and
swimming after that.. but i was too tired..
send them a SMS to apologise.. and head back
to continue my much needed sleep.. only to be
waken up by a phone call at around 11 a.m..
asking me to meet them at Selegie for karaoke
session.. quickly wash up myself.. then took
a bus there.. as usual.. they are late.. waited
for more than 30 minutes.. use to it anyway..

right now.. still so hungry.. but i'm still
typing these.. hehe.. shall stop torturing
my poor stomach liao.. that's all for today..
hope you all like the Monya animations i've
posted previously.. TaKe CaRE!! :)

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 6/13/2004 07:15:00 PM

Thursday, June 10, 2004

take a look at these.. cute.. :p
have to use [Open in New Window] for more convenience..
enjoy..

Monya Ep.01

Monya Ep.02

Monya Ep.03

Monya Ep.04

Monya Ep.05

Monya Ep.06

Monya Ep.07

Monya Ep.08

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 6/10/2004 12:10:00 AM

Wednesday, June 09, 2004

my first experience point.. few more to come..

[happy..]

what a twist of fate.. hit some rough patch a few
days ago.. not really in good mood.. everything
had a change after i picked up a phonecall.. asking
me to turn up for an interview the next day.. upon
hanging up.. i was like a panic spider.. rushing here
and there.. looking for my certs.. transcripts.. my
clothes for the interview.. honestly.. i don't have
any in my wardrobe.. the last time i wore shirt and
pants was during my graduation prom.. and that was like
2-3 years back.. luckily.. i can fit into my brother's..

hmm.. the interview was held yesterday.. went to Yio
Chu Kang.. the company situated near SSDC.. that makes
it easier for me to find.. upon reaching.. there was
another guy coming for interview too.. as mine was
scheduled in the late afternoon.. wonder how many had
actually been interviewed.. personally, i can only say my
"performance" in the interview room was not bad.. still
manage to show a calm composure, despite feeling nervous
all the time.. here's my very first interview experience
point!!

i have another one tomorrow.. at Boon Lay.. wonder will
i get a job that is nearer to my home.. both this company
will required me to travel for about an hour to reach..
only if i got driving license and a car.. i'm holding on
to a driving license that doesn't allow me to drive a car..
what license is that?? hmm.. :p

recieved a called from a friend.. he told me his company
is recruiting new staffs again.. finally.. some place that
is near my house.. just send my resume to him.. hoping to
get an interview soon.. :)

after a month of waiting.. the seeds (resume) finally bear
the fruits (interviews).. hahaha.. the wait is definitely
worthwhile..

besides the interview.. went for my driving lessons too..
improvement is insignificant.. but still okay loh.. this
morning lesson is one of the most relax.. even though it's
raining.. little mistakes were made.. hooked up a long but
relaxing conversation throughout the whole lesson.. really
make everything easier than usual.. really like to drive in
the morning.. don't know why.. maybe, i'm just more awake..
hahaha..

some tasks to settle for the next few days.. have to go for
job interview tomorrow.. meeting my insurance agent at Tiong
Bahru Plaza on Friday afternoon.. wanted to discuss with me
about the new policy of the company.. just meet up and listen
what she wanted to promote.. so that she won't call me up
anymore.. hehehe.. :p then, have to meet up my friends at OUB
Centre for dinner.. another driving lesson on Saturday.. hmm..
what else?? can't think of any at the moment.. should be enough
to keep me busy for the the few days..

Oh yah!! have to head down to the malls to get myself a few sets
of shirt and pants.. can't be wearing the same set to all my
interviews.. also have to get a pair of shoes.. hmm.. maybe
might go down to Ikea to find something to keep my stuffs and
accessories.. things are lying everywhere for the past few
months.. got to tidy up a bit..

being writing my post quite early this few times.. seldom
stay up till very late liao.. unless there's something to
do.. programme/movie to watch.. someone to talk..

well.. i have to stop here.. it's 7.50pm.. and i still haven't
have my dinner.. hehehe.. feeling a bit of hungry now.. lastly..
to my friends and foes who are reading.. have a great weekend!!
enjoy and be happy always!! :) TaKe CaRE!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 6/09/2004 07:00:00 PM

Sunday, June 06, 2004

how come??

[tired..]

here i am again.. think this will be quite
a brief post.. too tired to come out with
many things to write..

have been feeling tired since the day i
went Sunset Bay.. didn't do anything except
for playing computer game this few days..
most probably is due to my lack of sleep..
so weird.. i'm having so much time.. yet i
still lack of sleep..

this morning soccer game was dreadful.. didn't
have the energy to chase after the ball.. like
there's a sudden drop in stamina in me.. but..
it's due to my lack of sleep again.. hahaha..
slept at 3am.. wake up at 7am.. was playing my
game.. keep telling myself that i should head
for bed after this round.. and it just keep
repeating.. till 3am loh.. hehe..

20 more days to go.. :)

hmm.. should be all for today.. most probably
playing my game again.. haha.. but have to sleep
early today.. got driving lesson tomorrow morning..
it's dangerous when cannot focus on the road..
TaKe CaRE!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 6/06/2004 07:52:00 PM

Wednesday, June 02, 2004

i'm red like..

[sleepy..]

i'm in the middle of my sleep when i came back
on to post this.. let my sister use the computer
for a while.. somehow just fall asleep on the
bed.. until she wake me up.. must go right back
soon after i complete this posting.. hehehe.. :p
wait for me, my dear bed..

hmm.. what's on today for me??? packed with activities
ba.. went to play soccer with my secondary school
friends in the morning.. then meet up my poly friends
to go Sunset Bay.. as most of time are working..
public holidays seems to be the most appropriate
time to meet up for such gatherings..

the soccer game was a brief one.. met up at 8am..
played until around 10am.. then head home to get
ready for the Sentosa trip.. as my friend is picking
me up at 10.40am.. the game was like.. so tiring..
hahaha.. i guess i've slacken a bit.. no longer have
the stamina to run a lot lately.. hopefully, this
Sunday game will be better.. :)

ah.. Sentosa.. a place where i use to see just by
looking out of my window.. my second trip in two
months.. sad to say.. even though i live so near..
i seldom go there.. can really count the number of
time i've been there with all my fingers throughout
my entire 25 years..

play volleyball.. without a court.. play frisbee..
with so much of running.. run until my legs almost
got cramped.. i'm a person who is not easily tanned..
no matter how i try.. still no use.. tried swimming
weekly in primary school.. still couldn't change the
fact that i could not be tanned.. haiz.. the only
proof that shows is.. i'm red.. hahaha.. my friends
said i'm a lobster.. never tanned.. but always cooked..
who wanna have a bite?? :p

went to Tiong Bahru market for dinner after that..
ordered quite a lot of things.. just for myself.. i've
stuffed a plate of hokkien mee, three cha siew bao and
some chwee kway into my stomach.. that was quite a feat
for me.. luckily, this only happens once in a blue moon..
if not, the way i eat.. will definitely burst my wallet
in a matter of time..

proceed to Coffee Club @ Holland Village after the
dinner.. rest there.. talk a lot of rubbish a.k.a
cock.. hahaha.. then someone come out with a lame
question.. only follow by many more.. keep bombarding
whenever anyone can think of one.. one of the classical
question will be "what is Bruce Lee's favourite drink?"
as for me.. i like to ask "what type of light/lamp will
have water come out from it??" all this questions are
ask in Chinese.. most are actually playing with words..

hmm.. clearing my leaves already.. don't really have
any slight idea what to do during all these free time..
suddenly, i felt that going back to camp is quite a fun
thing to do.. can joke with my colleagues.. got things
to do.. not like now.. don't know what to do everyday..

hmm.. should be all for today.. really very tired already..
especially when i'm writing this.. and talking in MSN with
a couple of friends at the same time.. if not for my tiredness..
i think i could do more than that ba.. hahaha.. :p
TaKe CaRE!!

walkingtarts awake and ranted on 6/02/2004 10:59:00 PM

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