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[sleepy]
another day which i don't really know what to write hear.. maybe my mind is too preoccupied by the thoughts of getting a job after my ORD.. a couple of my friends has already found a job.. at this moment of time.. having to get a job is deem to be more important than how much will i be getting for this position.. although it is stated that the economy is reviving.. we still must keep our two feet together.. there is no short cuts or getaways.. only hard work.. seems like this thing will be bothering me for quite some time.. another phase of my life is raring to go.. while is current phase is running out of time.. a phase full of fun and laughters.. sweat and tears.. really glad that i've been through this with something not majority of the servicemen have the chance to do so.. a handful memories for me to keep.. also a slight change in me.. both physically and mentally.. which also make me decided to keep my hair short from now on.. hehe.. easier to manage.. more cooling too.. there's so much priorities in life.. choosing the right one, always is a headache for anyone.. moreover.. when one is spoilt with choices.. will make the process even harder.. hmm.. don't know why i write this also.. hahahaha.. well.. choices or not.. i'm usually not the one that get to choose.. more likely to be choose.. will i have the reversal?? too unlikely.. :) this is what meant to be.. always will.. even when i fall.. i'll never choose to stay down there forever.. cause the air up there is always fresher.. keep to my faith.. my determination.. and my usual bit of optimism.. which already get me so far.. Striking twelve soon.. got to sleep soon.. have to wake up in five hours time.. TaKe CaRE!! walkingtarts awake and ranted on 3/31/2004 11:46:00 PM
for those who love Internal Affair I/II/III..
this is something interesting.. the hokkien dubbing of the movie with a twist.. hehe.. viewers.. enjoy.. Internal Affairs wonder where they find someone with the voice so similar to Eric Tsang's.. hehehe.. believe this link will upload more of their new works.. stay tuned.. walkingtarts awake and ranted on 3/29/2004 11:19:00 PM
[yawning]
another month is going to pass in a couple of days time.. my ORD date is drawing nearer.. my feeling?? i'm not very sure.. longing for this day to come? or hoping time can tick by a bit slower each day? well.. i'm born being this contradicting.. something i find quite difficult to change.. today is the first weekend for Qing Ming.. the occasion where most Chinese will visit the grave their elder to pay respect and to tidy up the place.. got drag out of bed by my mum at 5 a.m in the morning.. the vehicle coming to fetch us will be reaching at 6.. my eyes still so heavy.. pick up my aunts along the way.. reach Jalan Bahar Flyover at 6.30 a.m.. traffic start piling.. cars.. cars.. cars.. everywhere.. left.. right.. front.. back.. all cars.. only manage to reach the grave of my grandma at 8 a.m.. that's an hour and a half... sit till my whole body ache.. luckily i'm not the one driving the vehicle.. still don't have license.. hehe.. if not, i'll definitely go mad.. really need a lot of patience and stamina to face such a heavy traffic.. proceed to Steven Road after that.. the place is very near Police Academy.. heard from my parent.. on top of that hill.. situated the grave of LKY's grandparent.. well.. never went to explore the place.. all the paths leading to anywhere is very messy.. even reaching the grave of my grandfather is a tiring activity for my parents and aunts.. went to Amoy Street for breakfast.. also can be considered as lunch.. quite late for breakfast actually.. got quite a number of delicious delicacies there.. their famous Loh Mee.. have to queue up in order to get yourself a bowl.. but.. we are not going to have that.. we are having Kuey Chup instead.. yummy.. really filled my stomach up with kuey and meats.. went Mt Vernon to pay respect to my maternal grandfather.. the people there seems like enjoying themselves.. some having picnic.. some playing badminton.. can't really believe i'm at a crematorium.. one of my friend is celebrating his birthday at Chevron.. holding a chalet over there.. had a short visit over there before heading home.. the month of March is ending.. looking forward to April.. there are many things that i got to do on April.. must not lose the zest of doing things.. if not, nothing will be achieve.. got to buck up and keep my head clear.. must not slack too much.. got to cut down of this bad habit.. hope you people enjoy the clips i've posted here recently.. will continue doing so if i recieve more from my brother.. TaKe CaRE!! walkingtarts awake and ranted on 3/28/2004 11:59:00 PM
this URL below will definitely let you laugh
till you drop.. trust me.. but the loading will take quite some time.. be patience.. good stuff worth the waiting.. :) Part I Part II Jacky Wu is jus so good in this.. hahaha.. walkingtarts awake and ranted on 3/25/2004 09:11:00 PM
[sleepy]
come in here with practically nothing to write in my mind.. couldn't think of a reason on why am i so sleepy today.. feeling this way since i wake up.. become tanner this couple of days.. all my mornings working under the sun is producing results.. but.. only on my face and arms.. damn.. stupid uniform.. wondering will my long weekend be granted.. don't feel like going to camp this weekend.. plus, there is driving lesson in the afternoon.. pray hard.. another 3 months and 2 days to my ORD.. looking back.. 2 years 3 months past.. time really flies.. got to start preparing for my next stage of life.. have to get ready my resume soon.. don't really wish to start job searching only after ORD.. know myself too well.. hmm.. with practically nothing to write.. i still able to come out with 5 paragraphs.. quite impressed.. hahaha.. got to praise myself once in a while.. afterall.. i've to keep my optimistic mind working.. hate to live my days in blues.. even though i always wear blue.. hehe.. blue t-shirt/polo-t with blue jeans.. and blue shoes.. hahaha.. with a blue haversack too.. my specs oso in blue.. looks like i can be the mascot of Monday anytime.. TaKe CaRE!! i'm blue.. da ba dee.. da ba da.. walkingtarts awake and ranted on 3/24/2004 11:40:00 PM
Five For Fighting =-= Something About You
It's been a long time coming It's been a long time coming It's been a long time coming I don't know where to begin I don't know how to get out there.. to see you I don't know where to dig in.. I don't know how to get in there.. to feel you It's been to long and I'm about to be.. in time for me It's been to long and I'm in time.. I'm in time.. Baby there's something about you that.. I can hold on to.. I'm going to hold on to that.. Baby there's something about you that.. I can hold on to.. I'm going to hold on to that.. I never thought I would win.. I never thought much about that.. (It's been a long time coming) I never stopped to begin.. Thinking about the process.. (It's been a long time coming) It's been to long and I'm about to be.. in time for me.. It's been to long and I'm in time.. I'm in time.. hey.. yeah.. Baby there's something about you that.. I can hold on to.. I'm going to hold on to that.. Baby there's something about you that.. I can hold on to.. I'm going to hold on to that.. And I'm going to be there.. be there.. alright.. alright.. I don't know where to begin.. I don't know how to get out there to see you.. Baby there's something about you that.. I can hold on to.. I'm going to hold on to that.. Baby there's something about you that.. I can hold on to.. I'm going to hold on to that.. It's been a long time coming.. x7 I'm going to hold on to that.. walkingtarts awake and ranted on 3/22/2004 09:40:00 PM
[good spirit]
have been celebrating so many birthdays recently.. more to come.. this is also one of those day where most of us gather together to meet up.. feel so happy to see so many of us talking, laughing and eating together.. i just hope for more of such gatherings.. was attached to Selarang Camp (near Changi) last couple of days.. still will be going over there for the next few days.. a brand new working environment.. due to limited work space.. we have to work under the sun.. when i got home.. my mum thought i went to beach for the whole day.. as i'm having slight sunburn on my face.. numb.... one of my friend just broke of with his girlfriend of seven years.. yes.. that's seven freaking long years.. but just this freaking sentence, "my priority has changed" made by the girl.. ended the relationship.. well.. a breakup doesn't initiate all out of a sudden.. it is already in the making for quite some time.. we are really at lost when he cried.. i can understand his feeling.. seven years of r/s.. the efforts that he had put in.. the number of sacrifices he had made.. all went unappreciated.. but something that i find it's good out from this situation is.. at least the whole r/s is pull out now.. instead of being drag on.. now, when he is still young.. he still have plenty of opportunity ahead.. a great guy like him.. shouldn't have any problem finding another girl.. one who can appreciate or reciprocate his good nature.. hope he will not be disillusion the meaning of Love by this event.. what is the definition of it??? not everyone will come out with the same answer.. everyone will have their own point of view.. there will be no definite word that be use to describe it that can be accept as a fact for everyone.. as for my view? i think.. Love is a feeling between 2 human being.. the feeling that nothing in this world can replace.. touched by even the simplest thing he/she will do for you.. something that can carry on glowing in the heart of two person.. till death do us part.. but when come to fairytales ending.. Tian Chang Di Jiu.. Hai Ku Shi Lan.. meaning everlasting.. till end of the world type of relationship.. it's really scarce to find it in current society.. a society that has turn the paces of life so fast.. change the concept of most people to be materialistic.. hardly there will be one.. i say "hardly".. not none.. there will still be cases where such Love exists.. really hope he can overcome this soon.. not affecting his studies.. exam drawing near.. need to draw a line between this two thing.. never let studies affected by it.. affecting it will only causes regrets in the future.. the last thing in a failed relationship is to create hatred.. that's all.. hopefully he will get over it quickly.. afterall.. there is still a group of friends always behind him.. people who will be there to share his joys and woes.. that's what friends are for.. ain't i right?? :) TaKe CaRE!! walkingtarts awake and ranted on 3/21/2004 11:34:00 PM
[Sleepy]
still few so sleepy after a nap.. wondering what's draining my energy lately?? maybe it's due to my extreme insufficient sleep since months again.. sleeping only after 11pm.. but got to wake up at 5am.. ok lah.. serve me right for sleeping so late.. but.. i usually only reach home after 7pm.. that only leave my with jus 4 hours to do what ever i wanted to do, even i only stay till 11pm.. time is set to a limit.. something ought to be sacrifice.. balance.... something had gone wrong with the music server.. can't listen to the song when the site is loaded.. argh.. hope the server will be back working soon.. thinking of what song to add after this.. any idea?? went for blood donation this afternoon.. but was refuse by the Medical Officer as i failed my screening.. sad lah.. but at least i'm honest when i fill up the form.. wait for next year.. after the date that i will be cleared to donate again.. which is actually this November.. have to be this way.. have to be responsible to what i've done in the past.. ok.. i know someone is going to say me again after seeing this.. (the Fund thing...) but i'm not going to deny it anyway.. i've done it.. now i just have to hold on to it till i'm cleared.. What had passed.. shouldn't dwelled upon.. haven't been reading for the past few weeks.. got to get back to it soon.. keep falling asleep while on the bus.. maybe i really get something that is to heavy to read.. not in term of weight.... got to be more careful when choosing a book next time.. suddenly miss the feeling of missing people.. well.. how to miss someone when i have no one to miss anyway?? courting trouble with myself again.. hahaha... saw a report on practicing magic tricks on evening news a couple of days ago.. an 70+ old man doing so.. movements still so nimble.. mind still so active.. he also said that practicing tricks can deter one from being senile easily.. maybe i should try practicing.. hehehe.. which, hardly i will succeed in any tricks.. have a poor hands and eyes coordination by natural.. hahaha.. for those who played badminton with me.. will definitely know why.. TaKe CaRE!! walkingtarts awake and ranted on 3/17/2004 10:23:00 PM
Clay Aiken =-= I Survive You =-= Clay Aiken
I see the picture clear now And the fog has lifted The wool you tried to pull over my eyes was clever Yeah, your gifted But you forgot to dot some i's and cross some t's along the way I'm better now despite you baby I'm stronger these days, stronger I survived the crash, survived the burn Survived the worst, yeah baby but i learned Survived the lies, survived the blues Almost killed me but I survived the truth And when you wrote me off like i was doomed, I survived you I can look in the mirror now It's been a slow awakening Haunted by a heart full of you I couldn't help mistaking That you could ever care for anyone Anyone but yourself, hey-yeah But you would have to have a conscience baby, Good luck, I wish you well I survived the crash, survived the burn Survived the worst, yeah baby but i learned Survived the lies, survived the blues Almost killed me but I survived the truth And when you wrote me off like i was doomed, I survived you This hearts been torn in two Cut and bruised from too many bitter endings I'll be damned if I have thoughts of you Rain on my new beginning... walkingtarts awake and ranted on 3/16/2004 11:13:00 PM
well.. which type do i belong to when i'm
online??? the 3rd type is definitely not me.. never dream of doing things that are simply won't happen to me.. i believe i fall between the 1st and 2nd type.. if there is only one choice.. i belong more on the 1st type... how should i define this?? hmm.. i usually presenting my real self.. find that it's pointless to act as someone else.. the only different might be the way i speak.. in person.. i speak less.. don't really like to speak up.. not really good at consoling others.. blushes when talk with girls.. well.. that's me.. while when i'm behind my monitor and keyboard.. i have the freedom to write anything out from my mind.. need not afraid that the person at the other side will see me blush.. here.. where i can really have my own freedom to express the most out of everything.. something that i really wish i could do in person with anyone.. can i?? can i?? walkingtarts awake and ranted on 3/15/2004 10:42:00 PM
[Self Motivating]
got scolded by my instructor today.. i was too nervous while driving.. well.. my first time mah.. definitely will get nervous at times.. driving on the main road, making me more nervous.. have to check this.. check that.. change this.. change that.. all messed up.. hopefully i could get to understand all these movements quickly loh.. actually i didn't really mind getting lectured by him.. it's all in the basics of learning process.. when things are done in a wrong way.. ought to be taught properly.. excessive mistakes made.. will be scolding loh.. at least he bothered.. :) didn't attend the party which was meant to set for Shawn.. my colleague who was posted to Thailand.. should reach camp by now.. wonder how will his first night in a foreign country be like?? will he feel the same as i do the last time?? really hope he can settle down quickly.. there will be lots of thing waiting for him to do in future.. back to the party thing.. well.. why didn't i attend?? hmm.. some personal issue loh.. more on health problem actually.. something that keeps bothering me now and then.. causes of this?? all my late nights and excessive drinking during my early days.. days.. perhaps nights will be a more appropriate word to use.. there will be never a day i wake up earlier than the sun.. never a night, i slept earlier than anyone in my family.. enjoying my new found "life".. eventually.. all these take into toll with my health.. maybe it's really the case where nothing come free.. this is what i have to pay for the fun i had.. back to the party thing again.. got drifted away from topic.. hehe.. well.. heard from another friend.. there were around 20 of them over at O Bar.. that's a lot!!! they practically goes crazy that night.. drink.. dance.. joke.. sounds really fun.. still i have to stay by my promise.. sorry guys.. really didn't mean anything.. you guys are a fun loving lots.. i really wish to join in the fun.. but i don't want to take the risk.. read a love story about a guy and gal met each other through internet.. in one of their conversation.. they talk about a person's personality in cyberworld.. The 1st type being those who present themselves on net with their 'secondary personality'. Usually all of us consists of multiple personalities, and in everyday life, wat we present to the world is the 'primary personality', with the secondary one being suppressed, or maybe we dun even realised this other trait of us deep inside. so internet is the place where this side of us is revealed, both intentionally or without conscious knowledge the 2nd type are those who will transform themselves into the kind of man/woman he/she would want to be. there's bound to be 1 or 2 characteristics that u particularly admire, too bad, sometimes these characteristics are just couldn't be found in you. cyberspace is the perfect location for this transformation to occur. 3rd type will be those who transform themselves into characters which are impossible for them to become in real life. for example, if u r a gal, you may act as a man on net. you may even become BATMAN or SUPERMAN if u want. above 3 paragraphs are extracted from the story.. well.. which type are you?? i will let you know mine in my next posting.. TaKe CaRE! walkingtarts awake and ranted on 3/14/2004 10:41:00 PM
got this quiz from humster.. interesting..
it turns out to be one of my favourite colour.. hehehe...
walkingtarts awake and ranted on 3/13/2004 11:45:00 PM
Family.. the closest of everything to all of us..
i truly believe that there will no be eternal feud between family members.. although there may be case whereby they could not live together in harmony.. they have grudges between them.. characteristic indifferent.. the fact that they are bonded together as a family is definitely undeniable.. no matter how bad a family relationship is.. there bound to be heart warming occasion.. peaceful moment together.. one of my friend is having a slight problem with his family.. what really causes this sudden rift between his mum and him?? like a dormant volcano.. suddenly got active.. all his displeasure towards his mum rushes out in spur of a moment.. if you are reading this.. your mum did have fault for being so stubborn.. but still, she is your mum.. a fact you can't deny.. at this current moment.. both of you are still hot headed.. i believe sitting down to have a peaceful talk is not a very good option.. it will only ended up with another shouting match most of the time.. the is still cases show likewise.. what i usually do when it happen to me.. had been thru all these familiar scenarios for many times.. i will just let things cool down before trying to make a talk with her.. try to make her understand my stand.. afterall, someone have to relent.. we can always wait for the other part to relent.. but how long will it be going to take?? our parents are no longer young.. time is catching up with them day by day.. they have their own fear.. i believe you also know.. don't let this matter goes on for too long.. it will not do you good.. jus now on the bus.. you ask about my brother.. you said that he must be enjoying his campus life.. i actually wanted to tell you something.. but i'm not a person who is vocal enough.. here, i will tell you.. i agree with you that he indeed will enjoy his campus life.. but he sacrifice his family time.. this is the same case of me going oversea for more than a year.. i did enjoy complete independent from my parent.. but i don't have anyone for me to rely fully on when there is something goes bad.. i lose a year of family time.. time that can't be retrieved.. i couldn't be there to celebrate their birthdays.. i couldn't be there when my mum admitted to hospital.. felt so helpless.. how i wish i could appear by their side immediately sometimes.. i know i couldn't.. you are thinking of moving out as an alternative to solve this issue.. but will this be the best way? this does not mend the crack that have created.. do think twice for this decision.. distances drift peoples apart.. you are a filial son in everyone's eyes.. i believe your mum will understand what you want someday.. but someone have to initiate the first move.. this is just some of my thoughts for your problem.. i might not be fully correct about the whole thing.. or fully understand.. i just want to tell you.. no matter what.. the group of us will be there for you.. like the motto created.. Peng You Yi Shen Nan Qiu.. we will be most willing to lend you a listening ear and our time.. that's what friends are for.. right??? walkingtarts awake and ranted on 3/11/2004 12:16:00 AM
kind of moody at the moment..
it's more like self-repenting actually.. damaged something during work this afternoon.. felt so guilty about it.. although i could choose to laugh off the matter easily.. but i just couldn't control my thoughts.. the matter may look not that serious.. but i feel that the damage that was done, causes extra work to others.. maybe i'm too paranoid over the mistake i've done.. even though my colleagues keep advicing me to forget about it.. i just couldn't brush it off.. hopefully the matter can be solve tomorrow.. only then, i can else my mind.. hmm.. went to cut my hair shorter today.. can't stand the feeling of having slightly longer hair.. feel so refresh again.. my head.. not my mind.. One should learn from mistakes, rather than to avoid doing something, in order not to make any mistakes.. walkingtarts awake and ranted on 3/08/2004 11:17:00 PM
Today.. i've taken my very first step for driving..
my very first practical.. the instructor is still quite patient with me.. hopefully this will remain the same throughout.. i have to do my part by learning the skills seriously too.. really hope to get the license soon.. quite happy when the instructor told me the earliest possible date for my TP is at July.. that will be just before my birthday.. this will be my main motivation!!! jia you!!! had a horrible morning on Thurday.. all of us have to go Nee Soon Camp running track for interval training.. the training is to train up our speed in running.. all of us will have to sprint 200m, followed by 300m and 400m.. after which.. we will run in reverse order of the above mentioned.. in between every sprint.. there will be a rest interval of 30-60 secs.. damn siong... almost vomited out after the whole training.. ok lah.. i admit i weak.. but want me to run like this.. almost killed me.. went on to meet my parents and sister for dinner after work on Friday.. my sister giving us a treat for her birthday.. but ended up my mum paid for it.. coz my sis was late.. hahaha.. that blur sotong.. went to the wrong place to find us.. not once.. but twice.. aiyah.. must be communication breakdown between my parents and her lah.. she growing older le.. hope her mindset will start to mature too.. she's current too driven by work.. no intention to further her studies.. that's really worry me.. hopefully as time goes by.. she will straighten her thoughts and think for her future properly.. Saturday.. thought i could sleep till noon.. given off by my IC.. hahaha.. so good.. but kena drag to go for a swim in the morning by my friend.. feel exhausted after just 2 laps.. old liao.. hahaha.. didn't swim since BMT.. really have to swim more often.. went to meet my friends at Chijmes to watch soccer in the evening.. ambience is good.. classy... Sunday morning.. finally got to play soccer with my friends again after 3 weeks.. it's either i'm on duty.. or not enough people to play.. after such a long break from the game.. feel so lethargic at first.. but slowly regain the momentum to play.. meet my instructor for driving in the afternoon.. before proceeding to Lau Pat Sat for dinner with friends.. it has been long since i had dinner here.. usually supper.. hehehe.. went to Wet & Whistle after that.. the place is so empty... practically only two group of people singing throughout the night.. sing till my throat sore liao.. hmm.. it's the beginning of another week.. hope it will be better than last.. just get better and better every week.. getting sleepy already.. got to sign off.. TaKe CaRE!!! Don't ever leave a question unsolved.. You'll never get to know the real answer if you never tried.. walkingtarts awake and ranted on 3/07/2004 11:55:00 PM
this title look like a sequel in the making..
who knows.. one day, when i got nothing better to do.. come out with something that can beat Lords Of The Ring with more than 11 Oscar awards? dreaming away.. talking about birthdays previously.. another birthday coming up.. that's my sister's.. my real sister.. i'm no longer into that type of so call "godsis" "godbro" thing liao.. find it so impractical.. back to the birthday thing.. what should i get for her this time?? well.. after much consideration.. my answer will be Nothing.. hahaha.. don't scold me for being heartless first hor.. let me explain.. i've already paid for her MD player last year.. bought her loads of stuffs when i got back from Thailand.. still pay for her X430 recently.. don't expect me to come out with another present for her birthday right?? i'm not operating a financial company.. or bank.. don't have so much money to buy her so much stuffs lah.. done my second guard duty on Monday.. as a very welfare person.. vomitting... hehe.. i let the guys do what they want during their free time.. the whole day is so slack.. even got time to catch the whole Oscar ceremony.. really impressed by the way Billy Crystal took on the whole ceremony.. he is one good comedian and host.. can really bring a dull ceremony into so much life alone.. respect! took half day off on Tuesday.. like to do this after my guard duty.. so that i could chase back those loss hours staying awake in the middle of the night.. reach home around 1330 hrs.. quickly took a shower.. weather was so humid.. dry myself up and jump into my bed immediate.. whatever happen after that, i probably won't get to know a single thing.. slept all the way till 1930 hrs.. still feel very tired.. damn weather.. making me feel so uneasy.. the work today is quite relaxing.. most of the time is just clearing up the workplace.. Coz.. there will be a foreign military group visiting tomorrow.. just want to impress those people.. make us shift this and that.. luckily they didn't want us to repaint the whole place.. that will be too extreme already.. :p called my would-be driving instructor this afternoon.. he said i must get my PDL first.. Provisional Driving License.. k lah.. i know most of you know this.. but i just want to explain it.. got to get it real soon.. so that i can begin the practicals.. really hope to get the license by my birthday.. but this seems too unlikely.. it's only a bit more than 4 months away.. see how it goes.. for a more realistic aim.. i hope to get it by this year.. so that i can drive my parents around during next Chinese New Year.. this way, they won't have to be caught in a crowded public transport or spend much time waiting for one.. That's all for tonight.. TaKe CaRE!!! walkingtarts awake and ranted on 3/03/2004 11:06:00 PM |
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