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it has been raining for 7 continuous days..
trapping me inside my cosy capsule most of the time.. not much thing had done during this few days of leave.. defeat some of the purpose of taking my leave.. make achieve the primary.. rest.. a.k.a slack @ home.. hahahaha.. Stepping out of my house in always a dread.. Coz, it means haf to spend money.. haiz.. Went to Bukit Batok Driving Cente.. booked my Final Theory Test.. 16th Feb.. hopefully can pass this time.. already lost count of how many time i have failed it.. either the questions are tricky, or i'm a plain idiot.. hahaha.. :p Got myself drenched.. lazy to bring an umbrella along.. hehe.. always prefer to walk around with both my hand free from things.. unless due to certain circumstances.. time really flies.. Friday liao.. another ktv session awaits in the evening.. haha.. i sing?? nah.. i seldom.. usually just sit there.. listen to all the serenading voices singing.. or those eardrum torturing shrieks.. *opps* shouldn't laugh at others when i, myself isn't a good singer.. going back to work on coming Tuesday.. dunno wat awaits me when i get back.. hopefully is more slacking session than more jobs.. haha... slack by nature... pray hard.. pray hard.. Weekend ar.. Weekend... what to do during this weekend?? the question i've always ask myself when it's drawing near.. and most of the time.. i find myself wandering at home.. good boy hor?? haha.. too old to associate the word "boy" with me liao... going to reach a quarter century in exactly 6 months time.. miss my schooling days.. all the crazy stuffs we had done during our "blur blur gong gong" days.. Maybe one of these days, can write about it.. which is maybe only.. hahaha.. my 3 minutes of enthusiasm... :p Slack.. slack for another 2 - 3 months.. then haf to start planning my future.. wat future? my future after NS loh.. goin ORD in June liao.. some envy that i'm goin ORD soon.. issit really soon?? while i envy my friend who is goin ROD soon.. damn lucky.. Envy is a sin.. do less.. do less.. classified in one of the seven Sins ba.. forget liao.. only remember "Gluttony" and "Sloth" coz this two are very related to my personality.. can't really differentiate whether i'm conquering them over.. or they conquering me.. Hey! Waistline.. Watch Out!!! hahaha.. yah.. my waistline.. still ok lah.. only that my tummy is coming out too often.. Go In! Go In! Go In! hmm.. most probably will be waking up late again.. haf to give BodyWorld a miss.. some many factors stopping me.. mainly is laziness.. not forgetting weather.. distance.. entrance fee.. finding excuses to cover up myself again.. hehe.. It starts with one thing.. i dunno why.... it doesn't even matter how hard you try.. - Linkin Park - walkingtarts awake and ranted on 1/30/2004 01:28:00 AM  You are one of the few out there whose wings are truly ANGELIC. Selfless, powerful, and divine, you are one blessed with a certain cosmic grace. You are unequalled in peacefulness, love, and beauty. As a Being of Light your wings are massive and a soft white or silver. Countless feathers grace them and radiate the light within you for all the world to see. You are a defender, protector, and caretaker. Comforter of the weak and forgiver of the wrong, chances are you are taken advantage of once in awhile, maybe quite often. But your innocence and wisdom sees the good in everyone and so this mistreatment does not make you colder. Merciful to the extreme, you will try to help misguided souls find themselves and peace. However not all Angelics allow themselves to be gotten the better of - the Seraphim for example will be driven to fighting for the sake of Justice and protection of those less powerful. Congratulations - and don't ever change - the world needs more people like you. *~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~* brought to you by Quizilla walkingtarts awake and ranted on 1/28/2004 12:05:00 AM
finally got a new skin for my blog liao..
hahaha.. quite satisfy with the result.. especially with my limited knowledge with all these programming stuffs.. many many days since i can seriously sit down here to blog.. what am i doing lately? busy? No.. i've been slacking around.. hahaha.. true.. now on leave.. only be back to camp on 3rd Feb.. Chinese New Year have 15 days.. so i celebrate all 15 days too... :p actually the main reason is to give myself a rest lah.. have been working since i got back from Thailand.. even machines need to stop for servicing.. i'm only a human.. Chinese New Year.. everyone welcome this special occasion.. moods uplifted.. for me.. it's just like spending another day.. only have to go some house visiting.. less shops operating.. etc.. maybe it's becoz my family members are not that excited over it.. find it quite good this way too.. like this type of peace.. don't really need to listen to many others giving comments to me or anyone from my family.. "Aiyoh.. Ah Tat ar.. when you goin to find a girlfriend?? How come you still serving NS??" after such comments.. all thanks to their amplified mouth.. my poor little ears will be torment by my naggy mother.. hahaha.. kind of use to it.. immune actually.. weather had been quite cooling this couple of days.. although it encourage me to laze around at home more.. but it hinder me from doing the things i want to do.. still haven't book my Advance Theory Test.. have to book tomorrow.. meeting "Condor".. hahaha.. my poly mate.. good friend.. is good fren.. not "good" friend.. there's some different about this two terms.. hahaha.. only the few of us will know.. did something great on the 24th Jan.. went to help out with a Resident Committee.. they were organising a dinner for the mentally disabled and elderly.. to celebrate the Chinese New Year.. to let them have a taste of this joyous occasion.. got to know this event through a friend.. since i have nothing to do on that day.. so i join the 3 of them to help out.. our task is quite simple.. jus to serve foods to the table.. i was appointed to this table.. for elderlies.. there are 4 of them.. all wheelchair bound.. each having an assistant with them.. which none are Singaporean... Where are they? hmm.. in this materialistic society.. it's hard to persuade them to join such organisation.. even i myself.. would not consider.. don't need to ask me why.. ask yourself... would you? anyway, the feeling was great after the whole activity ended.. watching them leave the venue with smile in their face.. and the "Thank You" that had mention.. it really lid up one's heart.. which money can't buy.. the organiser had invite us to help out in April.. they are organising one more.. i'm still considering.. any takers?? hahaha.. wah.. unknowingly.. write so much already.. better stop.. i'll post again soon.. hopefully the server won't get cranky again.. Cya! walkingtarts awake and ranted on 1/27/2004 09:56:00 PM
Dear readers and friends..
This posting is to inform all of you that, this site will be under renovation for a couple of days.. Maybe even weeks.. hahaha.. hopefully i can learn all those "alphabets", "symbols" and "numbers" fast.. Sorry of any inconvenience.. Also, to those who can't stand my thinking.. lucky for you all.. can have a break.. hahahaha.. HapPy ChiNeSe NeW yEaR woR!!!!!!!! walkingtarts awake and ranted on 1/23/2004 12:51:00 PM
What will happen when this day really come?
What is the first thing you will want to do? Me? Well, it will be the day i'll try to swim forever.. hahaha.. That's me.. always trying to make something crude out from anything.. whenever i'm this little bit of crazy.. some might find me lame.. but i'm just like this.. take it.. or leave it.. sound so confident from one who ain't.. hahaha.. yesh.. i'm back again.. after.. (let me count..) six days without logging in to write another of my nonsensical post... what had happen?? from my last posting.. can see that i got myself into a rough time.. but now, i've already gotten over it.. can't let myself degrading all the time.. am i right?? :) have to make a firm decision fast.. so.. i choose to give up.. it always feel so much better when there is a decision made.. at least no more draggy business.. rain rain.. everyday also rain.. looks like it will only stop after Chinese New Year.. believe me.. the first day of the new year definitely rain.. hahaha.. so, bring your umbrella along when go for visits.. this prediction is very accurate.. how have my New Year shopping go so far? got myself a pair of jeans, a pair of track shoe and a jersey.. (not a shirt n pants person..) always get something casual and relax.. but that already cost me a bomb.. S$300 plus!!!!! even some of my female friends can't believe it.. but i still can't get the white New Zealand "All Blacks" Adidas jersey.. seems like they went out of stock.. or cease production already.. though they lose out the World Cup.. but still their design is nice.. hopefully i can find it during my one week break.. gonna indulge myself with more sleeps and some jogging to prepare myself for an upcoming running event on February.. don't think will have much programmes during this period of time.. most of my friends are working.. don't think they will be free.. perhaps, i could try going city alone during one of those days to walk about... hopefully i will have enough determination to control myself from spending so much for so little stuffs again.. hahaha.. hmm.. looks like another typical long blog of mine again... gonna stop.. TaKe CaRE foLks!!! HaPpY ChiNeSe NeW YeAR!!!!!! walkingtarts awake and ranted on 1/20/2004 09:44:00 PM
why have i choose this topic today?
well, i did something wrong. all cause by my own nature.. it all begins quite some time ago.. got to know this gal through MIRC.. begin to chat with her quite often. sharing her woes and joys.. unknowingly, i'm attracted to her.. as in character.. unbelievable right? but it's true.. i'm someone who get attracted to another person by one's bore character easily.. don't ask me why.. it just happen.. (this is also the same reason how i get into my first ever relationship many years ago) okay, let's continue.. attracted to her.. i tried many times to ask her.. everytime, it is like so near, yet so far.. always something crops up in between.. nobodys at fault.. just that the timing isn't right.. recently, after came back from my oversea trip.. we get back to our frequent chats again.. and also met up.. things proceed one after another.. i express myself.. she seems a little hesitate about the whole thing.. in one of our meeting.. we were talking about relationship.. she use examples to describe about some things.. which i will not get into details with it.. from the conversation, i could sense that both of us are like a world apart.. although we may have this little feeling for one another.. think it's my naivity.. i keep holding this thought that everything will be put in place if i do my upmost best in everything.. hardworks indeed reap rewards.. but i ruin it with my own hand.. details about what i did.. i do not wish to disclose.. my own stupidity destroys me.. i do not know whether what awaits me tomorrow.. future.. i do not know if she will ever forgive me.. ever pop in to read this.. i know.. no matter how much "sorry" i can say.. how much explanation i try to make.. it's too late.. so, i'm prepared.. in any case you still can't forgive me.. i'm ready to let it go.. easy? never easy.. but do i have a choice? it's better to suffer for some time.. than to let the whole thing keeps dragging.. only to hurt both of us more.. whatever decision you have decided.. i'll respect it anyway.. Thousands of sorrys, can't change a mistake made. A single mistake, easily created thousands scars. walkingtarts awake and ranted on 1/14/2004 11:06:00 PM
Got this mail from someone..
should be my sister's friend.. find it interesting and meaningful.. enjoy.. A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full? They agreed that it was. So the professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was. The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with an unanimous "Yes." The professor then produced two mugs of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed. "Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things, be it your family, your health, your children, your friends, your favorite passions. Things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full." "The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house, your car. The sand is everything else, the small stuff." "If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. There will always be time to clean the house, and fix the disposal. "Take care of the golf balls first, the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand." One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple cups of coffee." So spend sometime and give your friend a pat on the shoulder or give your loved ones a kiss... walkingtarts awake and ranted on 1/13/2004 07:57:00 PM
Been quite some times..
quite busy lately.. with my works.. with my friends.. finally the most tedious days are gone.. all my current jobs are complete.. gonna say goodbye to overtime!!!! it has been more than a month since i'm back.. seems like time is going in quite a slow pace.. been chatting with many friends i've miss contacting when i'm away.. receive some feedback.. which one i found quite contradicting.. Changes.. how much have i change? i couldn't measured it myself.. only through what you people told me.. the most common one that i've been receiving.. should be that i've meadow down.. must be wondering what it means right? hahaha.. i'll try my best to explain.. some times before.. me.. still into occasional clubbing and drinking.. late nights.. ear deafening Technos.. half conscious mind.. welcome by headaches and nothing else when i wake up on weekends.. been an occasional clubber.. it's enough to burn a hole on my wallet.. i'm neither well off.. nor having a job at that period of time.. only after a certain incident.. that i sober a little, then i get myself a part-time job.. but partying just did not stop there.. the dramatic changes that taken place.. is when i'm in Thailand.. the true force that determine me to make such a decision is LONELINESS.. only through that lengthly 14 months.. i cut down my alcohol consumption.. only at that period of time.. i've been truly awake.. starts to hate the feeling of waking up the next day.. with only headaches and sore throats accompany me.. starts to reason with myself.. does alcohol makes me happier?? my answer? No.. well, it indeed makes one look like happier.. but in fact.. i found that it actually only numbed my mind... retard my brain from working at the moment of consuming these colourful fluid.. most of all.. i'm suffering from the side effects of frequent late nights and alcohol.. which a few of my friends know.. those who are really observant enough.. can really see it happen.. Lucky for me.. i did not pick up another habit that can always goes hand in hand with drinking.. that's smoking.. if not, i believe i won't live for more than 40 years... back to my changes.. well, some of you must have been trying hard to believe that i've turn into this way.. wondering what had really happen to the guy who always will b the first to agree to join with the rest for clubbing.. the guy who supply loads of Techno MP3s to the rest.. the guy who seems to be able to get the newest..... well.. his gone.. quietly retired.. he had enough of these colourful lifestyle.. now.. i only want to get everything of me to be in a orderly manner.. to get back into clubbing is not that impossible.. but definitely won't be anytime so soon.. really hope i could hold on to this for as long as i could.. So that for once, i could make firm with my own decision.. "Changes happens in every moment, face it with acceptance, or accepting with force.. Either way, changes are made to be accept." that's by me.. for those hardcore, stubborn by nature people.. what i can say is.. Changes happen.. if u try to make any more changes.. it's doesn't matter much.. Coz, it's no long the same as what it is before the changes occurs.. walkingtarts awake and ranted on 1/12/2004 11:44:00 PM
Everyone walk..
Everyone walk differently.. Some walk briskly.. Some rushes through.. How do you walk yourself? How do you walk through your life? I'm a fast walker.. To be more specific, can say to be a loner.. Walk my way towards the next destination with quite a fast pace.. plugging the two little earphones connecting my MD player to me onto my ears.. Well.. It's seems more like I'm isolating myself out from the rest.. i just dun like the feeling of walking or standing beside total strangers.. Perhaps, i should try walk slower.. walk my life slower.. Take a good look of what's around me.. what's happening at the moment.. Got this nice phrase from a chinese drama.. find it quite meaningful "BaGs of GoLd, CaN't bUy a LoOk BaCk" it actually in chinese.. which i try to translate.. it means always have the habit of taking a look back.. take a look back before you leave your house.. look if the lights are switch off? gas stove properly off? take a look back after u left your seat.. Have you left anything behind? What most important for this phrase is.. Look back everyday of out life.. Have we left something undone? if we do.. there's still chances for amendment if time still allow.. that, at least wouldn't let us miss the whole thing that had been missed.. Have we left someone behind? anyone we have miss out while walking through? anyone who we haven't been contacting? There's so much things in life we could have miss out while walking our way pass them.. Only know to regrets after we get to know their importance.. their values in our life.. It's not wrong to race through our life.. it's a common symtoms we all see in this competitive world.. Competition leads to improvement? Ain't i right? Just that.. we all should remember this.. we should walk slower sometimes.. so that peoples falling behind can catch up with us to continue the walk.. and to see a clearer picture of everything around you.. which are normally blurred vision as we rushes pass them quickly.. "Fate succumbs many a species: one alone jeopardises itself." - W. H. Auden walkingtarts awake and ranted on 1/08/2004 09:44:00 PM
the weather is getting more and more erratic few days..
so is this weblogs server.. thinking of probably start my writing again after the server is back to normal.. but they can't seems to give me a good answer to my question i've posted.. quite some days since i last blog.. what have i done this couple of days? was actually planned to watch the firecrackers and Chinese New Year street lighting ceremony at Chinatown with my friends on Saturday (03/01/04) reported that the activity will commence at 6 p.m but it just didn't happen.. instead, we went down to Orchard to catch a movie.. School Of Rock it really ROCKS!!! my every first show in this 2004... funny right from the start till the end.. a really good performance by Jack Black and all his young co-stars.. a show i would have recommend to everyone i've know.. play soccer the following morning.. my routine on Sundays.. always meeting them up for soccer.. was quite tired due to my late night out for the show.. in the end.. hurt my right ankle while blocking a goal.. ended my game early.. but it's just the parts and parcels of the game.. some of my friends always ask.. "What is the point of so many guys chasing after a ball? Really that fun?" Well, it's just like asking a woman, why shopping is so much interesting to them.. everyone have their own ideas of fun and interests.. Wonder will the server be working properly tomorrow.. Having not be able to read my friend's blogs.. i read my current book (Tuesdays With Morrie) quite fast.. should be able to complete it on the bus while on my way home after work.. really a nice book to read.. after that, i'll start with the other book by the same author which i've bought.. hope it's as good.. if not, better.. Think i've to stop here today.. can't seems to find something better to write.. Take Care My Friends.. walkingtarts awake and ranted on 1/06/2004 11:50:00 PM
" As long as we have memories, yesterday remains.
As long as we have hope, tomorrow awaits. As long as we have friendship, today is beautiful" found this message quite interesting.. one from the email a friend forwarded to me.. hope all of you who are reading will like it too.. :) Today.. the second day after New Year Day.. back to work.. but kind of cheerful.. why huh? hahaha.. the main reason is that the bus which i took everyday to my working area is more crowded than before.. School Reopen!!!! hahaha.. (Sadist huh?) not really that much of it.. most likely is because.. i can get to see more people every morning.. knowing i'm not really alone on my journey.. and more new faces.. hehe.. hmm.. seems like there will be an interesting topic to write and post here.. have been discussing with friends about it.. hopefully after discussion.. can get the whole thing started.. :) walkingtarts awake and ranted on 1/02/2004 09:38:00 PM |
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